Life shattered

Most impartant day of my life

I put one strap of my dress on and the other i looked at  myself in the mirror and be smile appear on my today is confirmation

Hurry up my mom voice shattered my silent state of mind

Okay

My dad took my hand led me to the car

I met up with my class

Hey I have to go get your grandmas

Okay good luck my mom kissed my cheek

We lined up in alphabetical order I was in the back of course

I put my finger on the pew as I felt the wood grain on fingertips and I looked at my family and my stomach dropped I felt sick to my stomach. My godfather wasn't even there to celebrate this important occasion in my life.
I went sat on the pew with my family I whispered in my sponsored ear

Hey I want to go home voiced choke like I could breakdown in tears any moment now

My mom told my dad  to call my godfather aka his brother

My dad returned and the look on his face  told he wasn't coming

My mom was bright red like tomato

I went I got confirmed and at the after the party my dad told me what happen

You godfather was working in his therapy office

Of course he was not a shocker that he would missed my most important day of my life as I sobbed in my hands

My mom put her warm gentle hand on my back as she rubbed I cried harder

I got up to get hot chocolate and put mountain of whipped cream on top

Guys this is the best remedy of getting of the depression blues

You depressed my dad said in concerned voice

Yes very much

You can't blame her godfather didn't come

I got a gift from my other godparents which made me cry

Thank you guys for making this somewhat special day

We went home and I cried myself to sleep

My father called my godfather

Hello

Hi

How was the confirmation

Awesome know what your goddaughter is doing

What

She crying in her mother arms she is done with life because you didn't go

She dramatic

Fuck you bro I'm done with you

Bye

The next day my depression had peak maximum capacity and I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind

Good morning mom and dad

Hey sweetie what up

I'm go on run to clear my mind

Okay

I put my running shoes on and I put my headphones on and I ran like a eagle felt like flying I felt free from life

I soon came upon bridge i looked over the pound as I'm standing there a hot guy walked by we made eye contact

Hi

Hi I'm Jesse

Hi I'm Stormy

It nice to meet you

I think you dropped this

Oh thank you

Can I have your number

Yes

We exchanged numbers we went our separate ways

I headed back were me and my dad got into a huge fight