Life shattered

Therapy session

I went outside and I got into the car

Hi she has so much pent up emotions and anger that she may blow up quickly before you can resolve this

How did you handle this

Threw her phone

You serious

Yes

Just take it away for like month don't take it away she will never be as vulnerable as she is when she trust you

Oh fuck You serious

Yes I'm licensed therapist

What are you doing

I'm going get to open up one or another

Will you record it

I'm afraid no

Why

Some of things she wants to keep private I can't be lying to her because she won't trust anyone in her life

Okay thank you I owe you

No I'm doing this for family

Thank you

My godfather got into the car

Hello

Don't fucking talk to me

Okay I will

I leaned my head against the window and I took my razor out and I cut my skin and release the anguish I have

What do you want for lunch

Nothing I don't want to be alive anymore

Why you mad at the world

I don't know

As i drive think about it

What are we exactly doing

You'll see it surprise

He blasted music and I fell asleep

I woke we in front of the nursing home

Why we here

You going to open up to your family

No

You not going to your parents let try them

There still family

Come on

I finally gave up and we went in

I sat by the microphone

I looked at all the faces

Hey talk please

I don't love myself I spoke I don't feel love in this kid who alone doesn't under stand what love feels like

Let's go I'll open to you not them

Let's go

We drove to the abounded warehouse

We sat on the floor

When you hear the word love how do you feel

Sad mostly feel like everyone given up on me

Why

I have so many people walk out that thought I could love but just back stabbed me

If you don't feel love how do you get that sensation of love

I masterbate and freshly I'm disgusted with myself that I have to go that deep to find love

You make yourself feel loved

Yes isn't it bad

No but you need human encounter

Have you ever been kissed

By my dad but never

I know this may seemed weird how would you feel if I kissed you lips

Sure

He kissed my lips and I ran off to side felt myself lose tension in my body I felt weak

What wrong

I'm sorry I can't do it

Don't run off tell me why feel weird and you ran off

I never had loved before you did that I begin to breakdown

With my disability no one wants a girl who has a disability for what to do this be afraid ever time she tried something

My godfather took arms

You are smart beautiful and amazing people love you but don't know how to see that your family love you and I do I promise you no one is going neglect because of your disability. Tell me why you feel bad about yourself

I'm stupid I suck I just want to end my life so I don't have live with me a girl who lonely and who can't remember anything

You can you remember me and family

Some days I wish my mom never had me at all and I would never be in existence on this earth

You hurt yourself  why

I give me released of stress

Take your stress out it towards your life and your love for music. I'm going to ask a personal question and don't worry just tell the truth

Suicide attempt why

Life get your in the butt sometimes you feel so off course you want the life to end by jumping or hanging it not like I could feel free I need help with it

Are you emo

Yes very much do you cut yourself listen to it

Yes

I want to listen to happy songs so you not in the dump I haven't made you cry

How did you feel when you were raped

I felt dirty and mostly I caused this I hope that it doesn't end badly will then my life changed when I was pregnant I fucking even take care of unborn child the water works and I screamed