My dad moved me to the bed and I continue crying into my dad chest
My mom took a picture of us
Then the doctor come in and told some sad news
Hi Stormy
How you feeling
Really emotional and depressed
It hard to lose a baby
We have some news that might make you a little happy
We know the gender of the baby
Don't tell me
Write on piece of paper give it my mom
Stormy have you been taking drugs or alcohol
Lately
Sadly yes
That the reason your baby died but also it seem like it happen today
Did you drink
Alcohol today
No
Mom Dad
Investigation time I guess I don't know
Well I'm going to discharge
Can I speak to a grief counselor
Yes I'll send them in
Five minutes past
I looked up and my godfather is standing in the doorway
Not you I threw my water across the room
He left he finally got the message
Hi I'm Lilly the grief counselor
I'm so sorry for your loss
What can do for you
How do you talk to your family about this lost
I would recommend give three to four days for your mind to come to the reality
I would recommend you tell your godparents who can be great way to grieve a lost like this
Okay
The doctor told me you be depressed lately
Yes
Have you hurt yourself
Yes
How
Cutting throwing up or even just no eating for days
You haven't been eating my dad interrupted us
Why
I just thought it would help but I guess it deprived the baby of nutrient
It did but is this first miscarriage
Yes but I was raped by my ex boyfriend
Yes mostly people who have a rape there body who experience loss they will try get rid of the trama which the means your body isn't had environment safe for your pregnancy
After an hour of talking to the grief counselor my mom had stepped out of the room
My dad drove back to the nursing home to see my family still there
I went sat at the bar can I have beer
No I want to numb my depression and suicidal thoughts I'm having
Keep your head up and stay strong
How can I when I just lost my baby
You did what
I lost my baby I announced
My family went silent and tears were heard threw the room
I went to the microphone and I completely lost it started screaming at god
Stop it
Let her get her feelings out
My mom went around putting on tshirt of the gender of the baby
She brought a balloon to me
Three two one
Blue confetti flew out
It a boy
There was cheers but sadness in the air two
I have a name Jason Joseph
I love it
My family cheered my name as I walked out of the door and I went home and went to bed because I was emotional exhausted from crying all day
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Life shattered
FanfictionWhen her godfather backs out of her life and she feel like she has know one to turn to but her uncle who lives far away from her but tragedy stuck her family how will he reached or will she be left in the dark and to fight the demons alone without s...
