Ocean Eyes-Outer Banks

chapter 36

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𝗂 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗒𝗈𝗎

jj watched as the ferry set sail and watched caroline wave goodbye from the top level. he watched the girl he loves leave. jj threw his hat on the ground and started cussing a bunch.
"hey! hey! jj!" john b shouted.
"what? what man?" jj shouted back, his voice cracking.
"calm down ok" he said trying to put a hand on his shoulder. jj quickly shoved his hand away.

"calm down? are you serious? i just watched the love of my life leave! she's not coming back john b! i-i just don't know what to do without caroline." jj said breaking down.

kie ran up to him and pulled him into an embrace.
"jj. it's ok." kie said soothingly.
"no-no it's not! i don't know who i am without her. she-she made me into a better person. she made me see the light and good in the world. she was the reason i haven't run away from home. even before we dated, i loved that girl. and now...she's gone." he cried.

john b and pope also came up to the boy and gave him a hug.
"you'll get through it man" pope said.
"ya. you got this j." john b added.

jj pulled away from the group and wiped the tears away from his face.
"i think i need to be by myself right now." he said inching backwards.
"ya-ya. of course. stop by my place later if you want." john b said. jj just nodded his hand and turned around.

"that's weird. he never goes home." kie said.
"who said he's going home?" pope asked.
"where else would he go?" sarah asked.
"i have no idea." john b responded.

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jj walked along the side of the road, tears falling down his face. he missed caroline so much and it had only been an hour since she left.

he walked up to his front porch and saw his dad working on an engine.
"hey." jj said.

his dad looked up and saw the boys state.
"what the hell is the matter with you boy?" he asked.
"caroline left for la." jj spoke.
"who?"
"caroline. becker. you know. my girlfriend. i've been best friends with her since like third grade."
"now how am i supposed to know every little girl that you are messing around with? i heard you get all the girls in this town. that's my boy." luke said.

jj looked at his father in disgust. "dad. i'm not just "messing around" with her. she's the best thing that ever happened to me." jj said starting to cry just thinking about caroline.
"yea. that's what i said about your mother. look how that ended."
"well, you are a terrible person so maybe it's you who screwed up. not her. and i'm not like you!" jj yelled.

luke immediately got up and grabbed the boy by his shirt.
"say that again boy." like demanded.

jj pushed his dad off and tried to walked into the house when his arm was ripped back and a fist made contact with his face. jj stumbled back and his father got on top of him. he repeatedly punched the boy until finally he got up.
"get outta my face. i hate looking at you."

jj stumbled into his room and locked the door. he turned around and slid down the door until his knees were in his chest. his face felt numb from the beating he just took. and his heart felt numb as well.

after about 20 minutes of sitting there, jj started to think. i don't need her. she's only gonna hurt me. i was perfectly fine without caroline. she was just a fuck buddy. that's all. she likes rafe more then me anyways. i don't need her. who cares if she's gone. whatever.

this is not what jj actually believed but he had to push his feelings for caroline away. she wasn't coming back. so his heart became cold. jj laid in his bed for a while until a ding came from his phone.

my everything

we need to talk asap.

jj didn't open the text. he really, really wanted too. but she was probably just going to say that she's missed him already. he waited another 20 minutes before opening the text.

my everything

we need to talk asap

ok. what's up?
not delivered

he finally decided to text her back. but it didn't go through. fuck. he thought.

what's wrong
hello
babe
caroline!
not delivered

"son of a bitch!" jj yelled hitting the wall.

jj through his phone and the screen cracked. the boy ran over to it and picked it up.
"shit. i'm gonna have to drop some coin on that." he scolded himself.

"caroline. if you're out there...come home. i need you." he whispered to the ceiling. 

aww this is sad