Ocean Eyes-Outer Banks

chapter 39

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the girl got changed and went to her bed, she sat down and turned on her led lights and her bliss light. caroline connected her phone to her speakers and went to apple music. she looked through all her playlist and came across sad boi hours. she clicked shuffle and laid back down. the first song began playing.

the one that got away.
used to steal your parents liquor and climb to the roof-
in another life i would be your girl-
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

caroline's heart sank as she thought about jj. next song.

Die From A Broken Heart
how does he sleep at night, momma the nerve of this guy-
i wanna kick myself for fallin so hard, momma can you die from a broken heart?

as caroline thought about that line, i wanna kick myself for falling so hard, she knew it was exactly how she felt. how could she fall so hard for a boy that wasn't even going to give long distance a chance...? next song.

Falling
What am I now?
What if I'm someone I don't want around?
You said you cared
And you missed me, too
What if I'm down?
What if I'm out?
What if I'm someone you won't talk about?

this song. this song was the hardest for caroline. harry styles could write any song and she would love it, but this song. this song was different. this song meant something to her. next song.

tongue tied
Take me to your best friend's house
Roll around this roundabout
Oh yeah
Take me to your best friend's house.

what? she thought. this song was happy, upbeat. why was it in her sad songs playlist. then she remembered a couple years ago.

"jj! stop! leave me alone." caroline stormed into her room, jj right behind her.
"no caroline! not until you tell me what happened."

the kids were 14 at the time, still best friends of course. caroline had just gotten into a huge fight with her boyfriend. she had loved jj at the time but was too afraid to admit it.

"caroline! what happened?" the boy asked sitting on her bed.
"josh and i got into a fight." she said.
"why?"
"because he told me that i couldn't wear these shorts." she said pointing at her bottoms. "and i was like, i can do anything i want. and i tired to leave but he grabbed my hand. i pushed him away but he still didn't take a clue. i told him that if he was gonna act like this then we had to break up."
"and?"
"we broke up..."
"oh caroline. i'm sorry." he said pulling the girl into a hug.

she turned on her music and sad songs began playing.
"what the hell is this?" he questioned the music.
"it's sad songs."
"no. no no no." he grabbed the girls phones and added a song to the playlist. it was their song. tongue tied. jj got up and brought the sad girl up with him. they began dancing around the bedroom singing the song as loud as they could.

caroline's tears soon turned into smiles. she was happy with jj and knew that whenever she was with him she would be happy.

caroline's mind blinked out of her memory. tears poured out of her eyes. that's when she knew, she knew she didn't belong in La. she belongs in the outer banks, with her best friends and her future husband.