Ocean Eyes-Outer Banks

chapter 5

as the four stepped into the house. rafe began talking over the loud music "i thought i said no pogues."
"do you want me to stay here or not?" caroline questioned.
"yea-yea i want you to stay here."
"ok then they stay too"
"fine" he said with a sigh. "you look really nice!" he yelled.
"thanks." she have smiled taking the compliment but not giving him one.
ouch. rafe thought to himself.
"so...um, drinks are over there" he pointed to a corner. "um you can go anywhere in the house, and um let me know if you need anything."
"ok thanks" caroline said turning back the boys as soon as rafe walked away. she smiled at the boys and lead them over to get a drink.
"you guys don't have to stick to me like glue. go wander off and get laid or something." pope and john b both left.
"what are you doing?" caroline asked jj who was still standing next to her. he took a shot and turned to her. he lowered his head to her ear and whispered "i wanna get laid."

this gave caroline major goose bumps.
"uh-um-uh...maybe someo-" she was cut off by jj warm lips being shoved against hers. she was surprised at fist and pulled back.
"...jj" she finally said. he continued trying to kiss her until he realized she didn't want it.
"i-i-i'm so sorry" he stuttered. "i don't know what happened...i j-just, i'm sorry"
"no no. it's ok. it's ok."
jj through his head back in annoyance. "god i'm such an idiot." he said angry and embarrassed.
"h-hey. no no. it's ok. it's just the rule. ya know. no pogue-on-pogue macking." jj looked at the ground and looked sad and disappointed.
"yea i'm sorry."
"it's ok. let's just forget about what just happened and go back to being the normal caroline and jj."
he was hurt and she was afraid of getting hurt.
"u-uh yea."
"ok cool." she said grabbing his hand and giving it a squeeze. she let go and started walking through the house. when she wasn't facing him, jj through his head back and put his hands over his face in disappointment. god what had he done.
a bunch of people were telling caroline hello or making it obvious that they were checking her out. and jj just let it slide. he had more on his mind to think about. he just ruined their friendship and he knew it.

as the night grew later, caroline grew more tired. it was 12:30 and she was ready to go home. it had started raining which was fantastic especially because john b and pope and kie had left an hour ago while caroline got stuck in a conversation about surfing with a tourist. she told jj that she was ready to go home and he nodded his head. they were making their way to the front door when caroline told jj "hey go wait outside, i'll be out it 2 minutes."

she ran downstairs to find rafe doing cocain with a bunch of other people. he saw her and got up immediately, she took a step back as he walked towards her.
"h-heyy" he said
"hi"
"so whatca you up to?" he asked
"i am actually leaving right now but i just wanted to say thank you for inviting me." she said.
"aw what? your leaving already?" he laughed. "but ya anytime. you will definitely get invited to the next party. and maybe we can get some alone time." he said looking her up and down.
she backed up and said "ya well um later" she gave a peace sign and ran back up stairs.

she went out the front door and saw jj standing right there waiting.
"ready?"
"yep"
"john b left us, so i guess we have to walk in the rain."
"that's ok." caroline said softly. the walk was quite and they didn't talk much. definitely not like normal. things were going to be different from now on. just because of one stupid move. as they reached her house jj let out a sigh and said "you might want to take a warm shower so you don't get sick." she turned to him and said "yea i will"
"bye." he said awkwardly.
"later" caroline responded. she was half way up her drive way when she heard jj yell.
"caroline!! i can't do this anymore. i can't act like i don't have feelings for you. i can't act like we are just friends. i can't act like i didn't want...no...need that kiss. i can't act like it didn't mean anything to me. i can't act like you don't mean anything to me. i need you in my life caroline. and not just as a friend. i need you as my girlfriend. i need you to be there not just sometimes but all the time. i need your dad to call me son and take me fishing. i need him to scare me. i need to spend hours upon hours just staring at you! i need to be with you all the time. i can't keep pretending that i don't love you because that tears me apart everyday, every hour, every second! caroline-" he was cut off by caroline running to him saying "shut up". he was cut off by their lips crashing together. they moved like they were in sink. they moved like they were one. they moved like they were meant to be. they moved as if they had loved each other since the day they met. after a while they pulled apart.
"caroline...i love you."
"i love you too" she said with a smile on her face. "come on. you can spend the night here." she said pulling his arm up the driveway. she opened the front door and quietly went into her bedroom. she handed jj some basketball shorts he had left at her house and a towel.
"go take a shower." she whispered. he just smiled at her and walked into the bathroom.

caroline went down the stairs into her dads office knowing that he would be there, waiting for her to get home or for the text saying she was sleeping somewhere else.
"hey dad" she said
"hello hunny, how was it?"
"not as fun as you would think." she laughed
"i'm not surprised you gave me that answer. who's in the shower?"
"jj, he's spending the night. is that ok?"
"yes, that's ok." he said getting up and walking towards the door. "i'm going to bed and so should you. it's 1:30 in the morning."
"yep. i'm taking a shower and then i'm going to bed."
"good" he kissed her head and she headed back up the stairs as her father locked up the house. by now jj was out of the shower laying on caroline's bed. she grabbed her pjs and went into the bathroom. she took her shower and once she got out she brushed her teeth and hair and got dressed.
"is that my shirt?" jj asked.
"maybe" she answered shyly.
"don't worry, it looks cute on you."
"thanks" she said blushing as she got into her bed. jj turned the fan on and the lights off and cuddled up next to her.
"i love you caro baby"
"i love you too jj"