alessandra [#1]

the end of an era.

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I stood in the doorway of Rocco's office waiting to be noticed. It had now been two months since Mia's funeral and Rocco had found throwing himself into work and staying silent as his best grieving tactic.

"Do you need anything Alessandra, or are you just going to stand there all day." I raised an eyebrow at Rocco conveying to him that I didn't like how he spoke to me. Well, he would know that if he even spared one second of his time to take a glance at me.

"I was going to see if you were hungry because I need to know if I'll just be making dinner for myself once again." Rocco still did not look at me while I spoke or even acknowledged my presence. He simply stayed silent.

I stood there for a couple minutes before Rocco finally looked up.

"Oh, you're still here." I was slightly taken back by Rocco's words but my shock quickly faded as it turned into rage. I took two large strides to Rocco's desk and swiped everything off. "What the hell are you doing!?"

"I am sick and tired of the way you have been treating me, Rocco. I will not put up with this any longer. You can fucking marry yourself for all I care." I ripped my engagement ring off my finger and threw the large diamond at Rocco.

I began to walk out of Rocco's office before his voice stopped me.

"You're the reason she's dead anyway." I slowly turned back to Rocco and looked at him in disbelief.

"Excuse me?" Rocco looked at me with a challenging glint in his eyes. "I'm the reason Mias dead?"

"If the shoe fits wear it."

"How dare you, how dare you blame me for her death when you're the one who pulled the trigger killing Killian. Lyon took your sibling for taking his, he was never there for me, he never cared about me. Lyon knew we'd call for back up and Mia would come to check on her big brother. So if you want to blame someone, don't blame the person who has done nothing but love and help you through this." Rocco's face quickly fell as he realized what he'd done.

"The only thing you've done is push people out of your life. The numbers of people have been dwindling till I was the only one left." A few tears fell from my eyes, rolling down my cheeks. "Now you pushed me out as well."

I turned once more to leave before Rocco grabbed my wrist pulling me back to him.

"Amore please, I didn't mean what I said. I'm just angry and frustrated that we haven't caught Lyon and I'm taking it out on you. I'm so sorry, please don't leave." I shook my head taking a step away from Rocco.

"You can't give me some half-ass apology and make excuses for yourself then expect me to fall back into your arms. Because we both know you'll go right back to the way you're acting. This relationship has never been healthy from the beginning to the end." Rocco grabbed me once me pulling me close and leaning his forehead on mine.

"Please don't talk like we're over, you're making me feel like I've lost you." I let out a dry chuckle before kissing Rocco's cheeks and opening his office door.

"That's because you have." I walked from his office to our bedroom and packed some of my things. After a few minutes of me packing my clothes and toiletries, Rocco came barrelling through the door.

"Where are you going?"

"Sicily, I'm going to spend some time with my nonna." Rocco shook his head as he grabbed my suitcase from under me. "Give me my suitcase please, I don't want to fight with you any longer."

"Promise me you'll come back and I'll give it to you." I looked at Rocco who's eyes were now brimmed with tears.

"I can't make that promise Rocco and you know that. Now give me-"

"Promise me Alessandra please." Rocco's voice was dripping with need as he was practically begging.

"I said no." My teeth gritted against one and other as I became mad once more at Rocco.

"Amore-"

"GIVE ME MY FUCKING SUITCASE!" I screamed taking Rocco back slightly as he slowly put my suitcase down on our bed. "If you want me to come back you need to work on yourself, talk to someone for the love of god. A therapist-"

"I'm not going to a therapist, I'll talk to you if you stay." I laughed a little and rubbed my face harshly.

"Don't do that to me Rocco, do not try and guilt trip me into staying. If you want me back you will learn healthy ways to cope and a healthy way to flourish in a relationship. And I will as well. But this is something we need to do on our own. We need to learn to grow as individuals to be able to grow together." I zipped my suitcase and grabbed my purse before facing my now ex-fiancee.

"Live for yourself and if we are meant to be together we will be. Remember to not take things so seriously and have fun. Not everything is life or death, not everything in life is trying to hurt you." Rocco grabbed me by the waist before leaning his forehead against mine once again. Tears streamed down his face.

"I love you amore, I know I haven't shown it lately but I really do. And I'll do what you said." I smiled and pecked Rocco's lips briefly then pulled away.

"I love you too Rocco, more than you'll ever know." With that, I left wiping the few stray tears from my face as I walked away.

But as one book close another opens. Though sometimes you read the same book twice. And it's even better than the first time you read it, then you fall in love all over again.

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the end.

omg guys i never thought i'd ever finish this book but this is it. there will be a second book because there are so many things unanswered as of right now. but first I want to go back and edit because this is a hot mess. we're also almost at 100k reads and I could cry at how happy and grateful i am. thank you all for allowing me this outlet and supporting me through all the ups and downs of my inconsistent writing lol. i love you all so very much. xo anna