alessandra [#1]

realization.

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Dinner was silent as we sat across from Rocco's family. My parents were trying to get me used to being around Rocco. But I refused to talk to him or even look at him for that matter. Mia and I had gotten closer over the past few weeks. She would tell me everything Rocco would say about me to his parents.

It was announced to us that the wedding was next month and I needed to start looking at dresses and venues. Meaning Rocco and I would need to start acting like a normal couple. He even got me a ring that I'm forced to wear when we go out. It's beautiful but I can't wear it without feeling resentment because of this whole situation.

"Alessandra, where is your ring dolcezza?" My dad asked in a nicer tone than expected. Lately, he's been nice to me, I think he feels bad that I hate what he's gotten me into. But then again what did he expect, he could've really thought I would be happy being forced into a marriage I didn't want.

"Upstairs," I answered looking down at my plate, swirling my spaghetti around.

"Go get it." I stayed sitting in my chair pretending that I didn't hear him. "Now Alessandra." I sighed heavily before getting up and walking upstairs. When I got in my room I put the perfectly cut emerald shaped diamond ring on before hearing my door shut.

"Don't talk just listen," Rocco said keeping his place in front of the door. "I know you hate this and probably me but I need you to just stick it out. I need you to." Rocco came towards me and put his hands on my hips. "I just need you to." I raised an eyebrow and took his hands off of me.

"If you can give me a reason why I should then I'll consider." I crossed my arms and took a step back from Rocco who seemed conflicted as to what to say to me.

"Because I care, about you. You must not remember but we grew up together then your parents homeschooled you and Mia and I went to Prep school. But I never felt the need to protect someone until I met you." I looked down at my ring then back up at Rocco. "Just give me one chance and if I screw it up then, we'll end it."

He was telling the truth, I know when people are lying especially mafia personal. They don't usually speak with emotion in their voice when they're lying. Rocco was practically spitting emotion at me.

I stood there thinking that maybe a chance is what Rocco deserved. He was forced into this marriage just as much as me.

"Fine, but you only get one. I'm not that nice." Rocco gave me a slight smile then left my room. Shortly after Rocco left I followed, back to the dining room.

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"Just a second," I called out as I made my way to the front door. I opened it and there stood Rocco.

"Oh.. hi?" I asked kind of unsure why he was at my house at 8 am on a Saturday. He stood there looking at me like I was stupid then I realized I told him I'd give us a try. "Ohh, come in." I moved aside so Rocco could come in and he stepped in without hesitation.

"Where is everybody?" Rocco asked curiously as my house was dead. Usually, there were people everywhere.

"My parents had to go handle some business in my dad's office so I just told everyone to go home."

"So you're here alone for the day?" I nodded, Rocco threw his hands up then crossed his arms in disapproval.

He seemed to be mad at me but I couldn't figure out why. He gave me a disapproving look for a solid minute before speaking again.

"You didn't think to call, what if someone were to break in and hurt you? Or if there was-" I held up my hand signaling for Rocco to stop talking.

"I'm a big girl Rocco, I think I'll be ok I'm gonna go get dressed stay here." Rocco shook his head then went in my living room and sat down.

I hurried upstairs and quickly changed into a pair of legging and a t-shirt. Throwing my hair up I didn't put any makeup just sprayed some rose water on my face then threw my hair up. I figured we weren't going anywhere special so I threw on my converse then walked back downstairs.

I found Rocco where I left him on the couch watching tv quietly. Except this time his face was scrunched together and he was typing furiously on his phone. After announcing to him that I was ready we were on our way to wherever the hell we were going.

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xo anna