Dream

15: Breaking point

A/N: I'd like to thank Audut24 for voting my previous chapters. It means a lot to me. I've kept my promise to continue this story. Let's hope I can put this story a good ending.. 

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Weeks have passed, but Sungjae is still getting many nightmares from his haters. Seems like haters still suspicious of him, but he can't do anything about it. The nightmares have also hurt him emotionally as he starts to lose his confidence from continuous hatred from it. Who doesn't, when people constantly mocking him because he sings badly and he's untalented. Sungjae has been trying to ensure himself that he's good, but it's pointless. He slowly getting anxious, wondering if he's good enough to be an idol.

Those nightmares make Sungjae sleeps as little as he can at night. He would normally sleep in the morning where most Koreans have woken up. When he meets his haters, he lets them do whatever they want as he's tired of defending himself in his dreams. They are too much to be handled and it won't hurt him physically anyway (although he feels the pain in his dream).

The other members notice Sungjae's face looks tired every day, but none of them dares to force him to speak as he always insists that he's okay. They're hoping that one day, Sungjae will tell them about his problem.

*dream*

Sungjae finds himself standing in the middle of a main road where cars passed by. Then, he sees a car goes towards him at a high speed. 'Another nightmare,' he thinks. He closes his eyes, waiting for the car to crash him. '1.. 2.. 3..,' he counts, but nothing happens. He opens his eyes and finds the car stops in front of him.

Joy, who sees a person in the middle of the road, stops her car abruptly. Then she looks at the person and surprised to see it's Sungjae. She gets off of the car right away. "Sungjae, why are you standing here?" Sungjae gives a shrug as an answer. "Get into my car, then." Joy pushes Sungjae to the passenger seat, making sure he gets on and runs to the driver seat.

"Sorry, that I almost crash you," Joy finally says as she's driving. "Never thought someone would stand in the middle of the road."

"It's okay. I never thought of it too, but at last, you didn't, it's good enough for me." He actually feels relieved to see Joy as he knows it won't be a bad dream right now, hopefully.

"It's good then. But, why don't you looked scared when I almost crash you? You're not feeling okay?" Joy asks casually. 

"Hmm," Sungjae answers her honestly.

"So you'll let people crash you if it wasn't me?"

"Probably. It's not that I can avoid them anyway."

Joy stops her car straight away upon hearing Sungjae's answer to talk to him seriously. "Ya! You can't do that!," Joy scolds. But then her tone softens after seeing Sungjae looks tired and hopeless. "Sungjae, look at me," she says softly.

Joy looks deep into Sungjae's eyes and continues, "Don't give up, Yook Sungjae. I beg you to hang in there, please. I know it's hard, but please don't ever give up on yourself nor your dream. Even it means you do nothing or having fun with your friends to hang in there, that's okay. Just focus yourself on those who love and cherish you, and those who are encouraged by your song and presence. Don't let those haters bring you down, please. Please, Yook Sungjae, I beg you." Joy's eyes are getting teary as she sympathizes with Sungjae's pain.

"Why are you crying?" Sungjae's confused. He gives tissue to Joy. "Why are you crying?"

"Because I know very well how you're feeling. The feel to fight alone, to be lost, but pretend to be okay even you can't see the end of your fight. I know how tiring and empty does it feels," Joy answers. "But please don't do that anymore, you have to remember your family, friends and fans who support and love you. They'll be heartbroken if you leave them."