Beat

Chapter 27

Mew's

I woke up with a light heart and the feeling of someone patting my hand as if assuring that I'm having a good sleep.

It was then I remembered what happened yesterday and who's the one sitting beside my bed.

I opened my eyes and looked at Gulf only to see him dozing off but still managing to pat my hand like he's trying to soothe me even if he's already tired.

I looked at my alarm clock and saw that it's already 1:00 am in the morning, yet he's still here to keep me company.

And I just found myself staring at him with this weird feeling inside me.

I hate to admit it but Gulf really made me feel better by simply being there for me.

I don't know how he was able to calm the storm within me and made me feel like I don't have to deal with it alone cause I can always count on him.

I still remember everything he said.

His promise.

I am not a huge fan of promises cause I know for a fact that they are meant to be broken.

But for once, Gulf made me feel like I can hold on to his promise and that he has no plans on breaking it.

Just thinking about the fact that whenever I am struggling, all I have to do is look behind my back and I'll see him there to give me the support I needed soothed my feelings.

But it made me feel afraid at the same time.

Cause I know for a fact that these feelings means that I've been vulnerable and slowly getting dependent to Gulf.

And that is against of what I am supposed to do.

I am supposed to hate him. I am supposed to not hold on to him cause he's just like the man who had caused me pain.

But why?

Why am I yearning for him to hug me tight again?

Why am I still feeling the touch of his lips against mine?

Gulf had made me feel things.

And I don't know but I don't have the guts to say I don't like it anymore.

Cause it feels so good.

So good that it made me scared of what's the consequences of this feelings.

But isn't it ironic? How the person you hated became also the one who calmed the storm raging inside you and soothed your pain as if he's the only one you needed all along?

And it's Gulf.

The one whom I never thought would hear me out amidst of the fact that I've been mistreating him ever since our first encounter. 

The one whom I never thought would rescue me from the too much pain my dad has caused me.

The one whom I lost my first kiss with.

And the one who's sitting on the carpet while I lay asleep soundly on my bed as he pat my hand to assure me that he's still here and won't go anywhere.

'Thank you.'

I wanted to say it out loud but was too scared that I might wake him up and that's the last thing I want to do right now cause his exhaustion is now showing because of the dark spots under his eyes.

His chin is seated on his other hand so I can clearly see his face and I just found myself being mesmerized by the beauty it holds.

I slowly raised my free hand and gently fixed his hair that is blocking his forehead which I regretted cause he suddenly opened his eyes and looked at me.