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I put the letter inside his locker and I walked away. Other students filled the school halls and I went to my locker.

To find the daily stuff I have to go through. Another 10 letters extra. I let out a sigh and put them in my bag.

My girls showed up and we went to our classes. Not saying a word this silence means we have nothing to talk about because we don't tell anything to one another.

After class it was lunch time. Hyuna was already seated at the table with her boyfriend. Just like any other day. I sat down. I'm surrounded by fakes.

I looked at the people sitting besides me. The only one I could trust and feel free around is Chungha but she wasn't here. Irene is gone for another 2 weeks so I have no one.

I got a text and checked my phone. I couldn't believe what I saw. I got up and walked towards Hyuna. I saw how they all tensed up.

"Relax I'm here for Hyuna." I said as they all relaxed a bit but she didn't look up at me. "What is it?" She asked me still not sparing me a single glance.

"It's important and private can we talk?" I asked her getting impatient and letting out a small sigh. "We can talk later ok." She said not even looking at me.

This so supposed to be my best friend I walked closer. "It's fine don't bother." I spat angry and left. I didn't go to my table because they didn't even notice I left.

I decided to go to the roof. My safe haven. As I walked on the roof I felt the fresh air and wind blow.

I sat on the bench that was on top of it and just stared at the sky. Why must my life be like this. I felt tears fall down.

I feel so alone. This dark hole sucks me in each day and it's harder to find the light. I got up and went to the edge.

I was debating whether I should just jump or not. If I do then I will be free it's not like anyone will miss me.

But then I will have given up when that one person agreed to help me. I haven't even told him everything. I must have the courage to stay a little longer.

I backed away and sat back on the bench. I just sat there crying. It was time for class but I didn't care.

I just stayed there crying all my emotions out. After a good hour and something of crying I went downstairs. The halls where empty because the next bell was about to ring.

I walked down the lockers and I saw Namjoon. He had a letter a placed it on top of his locker. He looked at me and I just stood there.

Totally forgetting the fact I just cried for an hour and my eyes look swollen and puffy and red. I quickly looked down and he just walked away.

I went to his locker and grabbed the letter and read what it said.

I should keep my distance from them. Maybe that will work I mean maybe they'll see I'm not around. I'll just eat alone it's not so different from what I'm doing now anyways.

Irene where are you when I need you the most? Only you and Chungha now everything about me. I need you guys can't you see I'm desperate for help? Can't you see I'm dying over and over again.

Hyuna leaves me hangin when I need her the most. Irene you would never do that to me. You would always listen and help me out even if you where doing something important. Why did you have to leave. Why did you leave me.

As school ended and I went home I saw Hyuna running towards me. "Hey what did you want to talk about?" She asked me. Is she for real.

"Oh so now you want to talk?! Forget it I already told you it's fine. You like spending time so much with your boyfriend then do so. Don't let it bother you that your best friend wanted to talk to you about something but that you didn't even look her in the eye and flat out ignored her." I said and I stomped away heading home.

Well more like a house that doesn't feel like home. I went straight to my bed and red the letters and replied although I never send them I feel to bad leaving them with no reply.