The Song's Memory (Engineering Student #2)

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter 18

Time flies so fast when we are happy, how can we slow it down?

I was lonely before I met Kai. I always seen being alone. Not because I am snob or I don't want friends, in fact, I am wishing to have one. I am longing for my parent's care and attention. In school, I experienced betrayal by my own friend. I experienced rejection whenever I saw my classmates being distant and mad at me for no reason. My fragile heart was broken when my boyfriend broke up with me for no specific reason. During my hardest times, I met Kai. Though he is at first snob and easily gets annoyed at me, he is the only one who sticks with me. Now, he is my boyfriend...

Now that he will be leaving, I can't help but to feel sad. Just like what others did... they leave. Bakit ngayon pati siya kailangan din umalis? Not that he will leave for good, he will be back—he will just go there for his dreams. But what about me? Mag-isa na naman ako. Simula noong nakilala ko si Kai, natatakot na ako mag-isa.

Gusto ko magalit at pigilan siya sa pag-alis. Gusto ko siyang pigilan sa pag-alis but who am I to do that? I am just only his girlfriend. You know I am trying to be positive and be supportive to him even though inside, it's killing me. I always take comfort knowing that he is happy with this achievement of his.

I love him and I don't want him to leave me... I love him but I know that part of loving him is supporting him in any ways and that's what I am doing. I believe on him so I will just wait until he finished his studies there in America. Besides, we're still young. I know that he prioritizes his studies first... but once again, how about me?

No, I should get rid of this thought. I will support him. Come on, Zarah. Be matured enough in this relationship.

I looked at our hands that are intertwined while we are watching how the sun sets. It never fails to amaze me. Sana hindi na matapos pa ang araw na ito. Can I freeze time? How I wish I can...

"Anong oras alis mo bukas?" nilingon ko si Kai at nakitang nakatingin din ito sa araw. Ang mga mata niya ay kumikislap. One thing I liked about him the most is his eyes. It's very expressive. Mahahalata mo kapag galit siya, naiinis, nalulungkot, o masaya. Sa ngayon, ang mga mata niya ay malungkot at mapupungay kahit sa kabila ng ganda ng aming nakikita.

Tiningnan niya ako. He managed to give me smile.

"8 am ang alis ko rito at 5 pm ang flight ko," aniya.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na aalis na siya bukas. Ang bilis ng pangyayari. Gustuhin ko man na magtagal siya dito ay hindi na p'wede.

Pagkatapos ng semestre ay walang palya kaming nagkakasama. Sinasamantala ang mga araw na na nagdadaan. Aminin ko, sa mga panahong kasama ko siya ay hindi ko naiisip na aalis siya. Tanging laman ng isipan ko ay kaming dalawa lang.

I captured lots of moments. I took a lot of photos. Para kung sakaling malumbay ako, titingnan ko lang ang mga ito, ayos na ako.

Sometimes I helped him preparing his requirements and whenever I see him happy because of this, I admit defeat. This is what he wants. I am just here supporting him.