Gone With The Wind ✔️

five

Elizabeth

"May I ask?"

"You're already asking." I pursed my lips to prevent the laugh that wants to run off from my throat, when I witnessed his expression towards my response.

"Seryoso akooooo." He whined and it made me chuckled. I let go of my spoon and fork and leaned on the chair. I also crossed my arms and I rested my right leg to my left leg.

"Let's see your question." Ani ko na parang tunog nanghahamon.

"How do you want to spend your late night deep talks with anyone?" He uttered as he played on the straw of the pineapple juice he ordered. I held my chin and caressed it, as if I was thinking.

"Well..."

I don't usually have late night deep talks with anyone, since I guess no one's interested to have one with me either. I mean I do have one, myself. Only myself. And I usually spend it on my bed, talking shit about me, talking about my regrets, what ifs and all.

"My ideal late night deep talk you mean?" I cleared. He nodded.

"Well, simple lang. The setting will be at the beach. Letting our feet being drenched with the sea water and the only light we have it's either the moonlight alone or some bonfire."

"And of course I want to be with someone genuine. Who really loves to have that kind of talk with me." I added. I wonder how does it feels like to have a genuine talk with someone genuine. I bet it feels really good.

"Me? The place doesn't really matter. Just like you, I just want someone genuine." he said and released a small smile.

Because having that type of person is necessary when it comes to deep talks. Even if sometimes you struggle at divulging words you wanna divulge, that person immediately gets what you wanted to express.

Having that type of person is relieving. I wish I have one.

After our meal, we had a walk for a minute to help our intestines digest our foods. I was so full because I had two spicy chickens and a one and a half cup of rice considering I didn't ate breakfast.

"May fireworks display mamaya. Punta tayo."

Since my plan is to get lost and go anywhere I want to be, I agreed forthright.

I stopped in between of the walk when I felt a twinge on my neck and in my groin. And then on my abdomen. My heart began to beat rapidly as my chest pain starts to develop.

Natigil siya sa paglalakad nang mapansin nahinto ako. He looked so fretted and concerned when he immediately marched towards me and held both of my shoulders.

"Okay ka lang?"

As much as I want to say 'no', I forced a smile instead and gulped. The pains are still here.

"My tummy just felt uncomfortable. Sa kinain ko siguro to kanina. You know I ate a lot earlier." I tried to cover by releasing small laughs. His expression loosen as he sighed.

Gusto ko na maiyak sa sakit pero hindi pwede. I will never dare to cry in front of anyone again.

"Sigurado ka ah? Namamawis ka ng sobra. Do you want to go to a rest room? Hindi pa naman tayo ganon ka layo."

Maybe he thinks that I just need to defecate. Even if it's a bit embarrassing for me, I think it's much better if that's what he thought than he'll know that the person he is with is ill and dying.

"Sige."

We immediately went back to the place where we ate and I immediately asked a staff for a restroom. He's just outside sitting on a free table, scrolling on his phone's screen.

I secretly asked waitress for a glass of water and maybe she's creeped out when I bought the glass inside the restroom. But to be concerned about her thoughts is not my priority now.

My hands were shaking as I opened the bottle of my medicines. Niyugyog ko ito sa'king palad at kumuha ako ng dalawang tabletas. I then drank it.

I sat in the toilet for some minutes as I pursed my lips to prevent my sob. My tears are already falling because it's really painful.

Ah, why now?

I waited for more minutes and I kinda feel guilty because he's there waiting for me. I bet he's already so bored. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng medyo gumaan na ang pakiramdam ko. After I went out from the c.r, I stopped in the mirror first to see myself.

My eyes are a bit swollen and my lashes are still damp because of my tears so I wiped it. I also retouched and released a deep breath before finally going out.

"Sorry to keep you waiting." I shyly exclaimed. He just gave me a smile and he stood up.

"It's fine. Okay ka na?" Tumango na lang ako at ngumiti bilang sagot.

I was really thankful that the pain did not cameback until the moon took over. We're currently eating hotdog's on sticks and each of us has two pieces. We're still full because of what we ate for our brunch so we decided ito na lang muna ang kainin na'min.

The oval is already full with food vendors and people. There are various of fairy lights too and they're good for photo background.

"What time it will start?" I asked while I bit my the head of the hotdog. But I them immediately took it away from my mouth because of its searing inside. Seriously, how many more blows do I have to do to lessen its hotness?

"Dahan dahan lang kasi." Natatawa niyang ani. I just gave a sheepish smile and started blowing the food again.

"By the way it'll start at 7:30 or 8." He answered. While walking, I noticed some people are with some clothes like for some picnic ang small pillows. Are they going to sleep here?

"Why do they have that? They will sleep here?" I asked and looked at him.

"Maybe. Why do you want some too? Bibili tayo sa labas. That's if you want to spend a night here."

Nah, huwag na lang.

I shook my head as a response. We sat on the grass and leaned on a fenced. I was desperately waiting for the fireworks that's why I keep on glancing on my watch. 5 more minutes and it will start.

Like what I always do, I prepared my phone's camera and Instax so I won't miss anything. On the other hand, he ready his phone's camera too and when he noticed that I am looking at him, he smiled at me and titled his phone.

"Documentary." He chuckled.

"Wow you're learning a lot from me." I joked and laughed.

"Yeah. That's why I'm certain I won't regret spending days with you."

On a spur of the moment, I'm starting to feel some tingles on my stomach as if there are butterflies playing inside. My heart beat became slight abnormal that's why I immediately looked away at him.

When the announcer finally held the mic and announced that at any minute now, the fireworks will boom,  I stood up quickly and grabbed him too excitedly.

"Don't let your camera capture everything live. Let your eyes too." I laughed at him and nodded like a kid. An idea came in my mind so I squatted quickly and place both of my camera and set a timer so while it's recording, my eyes are also savouring the mesmerizing fireworks.

I then went back beside him immediately.

The announcer started counting so the people did the same too.

I jumped excitingly as the fireworks starts to appear in the sky. I was so mesmerized and astonished with the colors and patterns it created.

All of us shouted with admiration. Because of my the merriment, hindi ko namalayang napakapit na pala ako sa braso niya.

The fireworks are too cool and they're worthy to be recorded.

"Ang ganda." I beam.

"They really are."

I don't know how many hours the fireworks lasted but I am sure I was really happy and sad at the same time.
I wonder if there will be like this in the afterlife? I wonder if I am finally there, will someone be there waiting for me, to spend like this too?