Gone With The Wind ✔️

six

Elizabeth

I happily watched the video and scanned the photos I took earlier. People's loud cheer of excitement were very audible in the video and that makes it prove that what happened was really beautiful and surely it will be sealed at everyone's heart.

"I'm really thankful you brought me here." I marveled and raised the camera above the sky and happily twirled.

I was really right when I thought people will spend a night here and I guess to catch the sunrise? Or they will have a star gazing since starts are pretty numerous tonight.

Before going to somewhere else, we stopped at a convenience store and I am confused why he bought so many foods most of it were really unhealthy. But I didn't bothered to complain either instead I also bought some and paid a cash on the cashier.

He waited for me as I waited for my change. And then after, we finally went out.

"Sa Arcinez po kuya." He stated the address to the driver. My brows met when I heard the name. Arcinez? It's my first time hearing that word. And what kind of place is that? Its name sounds so oldy but classy.

"Saan yun?" I asked him and placed the bags on my lap so my hands won't feel numb.

"It's a resort. Beach resort."

Nakunot ang noo ko sa kaniya. This night? We're going to a beach resort? May bukas pa ba ngayon? It's almost 10 pm. I'm not saying that I am not in but I am just bewildered. An open beach resort at night?

"What are we going to do there?" I asked. I had a rapid move when one of the big chips I bought almost fell on the floor.

"Have a late night deep talks."

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"Wow they're open 24/7?" We're finally walking on the smooth white sand as I hug the paper bag on my chest. My smile widened as I heard the sound of the waves crashing with each other.

The draft is kinda wild so it made my hairs fly and cover my face. Earlier I was really surprised with his answer that we're about to do some late night deep talks. I wasn't able to respond well considering I was stupefied.

We just had a chitchat earlier about our ideal late night deep talks. I've mentioned my own ideal type which is the setting will be at the beach with a genuine person. And now, we're here..

Para kasing ano...

It feels like he's fulfilling it.

"Yup, mainly for travelers or tourists." Napatango naman ako sa kaniya. We sat not so far from the shore so our feet will be wet through. The sand is so smooth so it doesn't hurt our butts.

We place the foods in between us. Big chips, biscuits, some chocolate bars, canned drinks and of course water. Wow, our dinner is really healthy, isn't it?

I wonder above the sky and my heart is replete with happiness because of its stupendous sight. The moon is so full and it gives us enough light. As well as the stars, I love the way how they twinkle.

"I hope nights will always be like this. Calm and beautiful." he stated as he turned his gaze on me. We gave each other an affiliative smile and then I looked away while nodding.

"I really hope so. Because it heals vexations. But you know life, it will never let it happen." One of the truths in life that we cannot evade. Whether we like it or not, another days and nights will come and reign, bringing different kinds of episode that we need to sit and deal with.

Nothing last permanently. That's not how life works.

"'Why won't happiness stay?' I've been questioning my life with this question numerous times, up until now, even if I already know the answer." He chuckled. I saw a glimpse of sadness in his eyes and I felt something within me. I feel sad.

He opened a can of coke and chugged it.

"You won't grow if you won't let downs in."

Years of being alone, sapped by life, it's also unavoidable for me to question myself with such.

'Why can't happiness stay?'

Bakit nga ba? Bakit hindi na lang pwedeng maging masaya palagi? Nakangiti palagi, nakatawa. Puno ang puso ng saya at ligaya. Bakit nga ba hindi na lang maging ganon?

Funny in the past, and at some point in the present, my inner whispers that, maybe the reason why I am so unlucky in life because life is an anti-bitch. But look, life is also being a bitch itself.

The irony.

But as I grow older, I realized things. Without pain we cannot bloom. Pero nakakapagod din kasi diba? Specially when we're trying to stand up again from a plight with our wounded knees and hearts, another plight will come so we stumbled again. Paulit-ulit.

Yung pakiramdam na parang ayaw tayong maging masaya.

"Do you believe in happy endings?" His question made me released a bitter smile.

"Life's happy endings, you mean?" He nodded.

"Mas naniniwala ako sa favouritism." I chuckled and opened and reached for the big Cheese Ring and tore the upper wrapper. My hand rested on his knee as I offer the food.

I do believe in life favouritism more, but it doesn't mean that I don't believe at happy endings. There are various things that proves happy endings' existence. Commonly, sunset.

"Life favouritism?" He repeated and I nodded.

"Yup. It's hard to elucidate but I'll try." I exclaimed as I changed into position.

"Life favouritism because you see, ang daming taong parang mas ma-pabor. There's a lot of people being so serendipitous, adored, lucky in family, body and all."

"Lucky with life span." I continued.

I felt a pang on my chest as I remembered the day my family dragged me out from our house. The way they spit out those afflictive accusations and words, it always lingers in my soul. And it's so impossible to obliterate all of them. I can't erase them out in me no matter how hard I try.

No matter how distract myself from all of those bullshits, I just can't.

I am not sure I am the most unfortunate human being in this world. But I am sure that I am one of those. And actually at that side, I wish I should really just die.

The pain I felt physically can't reach the extremism of my pain emotionally.

"Lucky with life span?" he looked so bewildered with my words but I just nodded.

Yeah, lucky with life spans. Lucky with time. Because them, they still have a lot of time to enjoy and reach their goals, their wants in life. Even those people who are pretty hopeless with their home or life crap. Basta wala lang silang sakit. Even if they feel they're so hapless or luckless, if they're not sick physically, they're still lucky.

Unlike me. May sakit na nga, wala pang pamilya. What a lucky shit am I, right?

"Bakit mamatay ka na ba?"

I was caught off guard with his words kaya hindi kaagad ako nakasagot sa kaniya. I swallowed and blinked several times before I could let out a fake laugh and release words.

"H-huh? Pinagsasabi mo."

With my trembling hands, I opened my water and chugged it like I am so thirsty. But the reality, I just want to calm my heart because I feel so nervous. I know I shouldn't but I don't know I can't explain.

His straight serious gaze made me more nervous and conscious. I shouldn't have said that. Shit.

I tried to cover my words with a small smile and moved my brows up and down. I also picked chips again and shot it in my mouth.

"Your tone, your eyes, the way you aver, you look like you're dying. And I hate it."