6th August 2020
TW
I know it sounds dumb to do but.. it helps grounding me. I used to do it after most panic attacks to help ease my nerves but with Princey being how he is recently i've just stopped completely. But he's gone now.
Jeez, I make it sound like he's dead.
Oh shit, what if he is?
No, no. I'm overthinking again.
I should talk to Picani tomorrow if princey isn't back. Yeah.. that should help.
Swear to god i'm going insane by myself.
Patton, being the great dad he is, checks up on me by knocking at my door everyday. I always respond blankly with an 'i'm fine', however I can tell he is still concerned. Logan better be taking care of him.
Every day is the same.
Waking up, panicked and tired over the nightmare I had before hand.
Wasting the day by having panic attacks and crying until there's no more tears left to shed.
Blasting my playlist on full volume to drown my thoughts out. My thoughts are getting louder and scarier.
Then watching Disney movies until I pass out from over exhaustion.
Repeat.
I'm in a routine, Im losing it.
Who knew I was this damaged?
Damaged beyond repair.
I thought Princey was helping me- I mean, he was but I can't just be with him every second of my life. He'd hate spending anymore time with me then he already has to.
Anyway.., here's another log.
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1:38am
5:25am
6:21pm
11:51pm
and it pretty much repeats like that..
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I hope he comes back soon.
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