Messy Y/n Jefferson × Philip Hamilton

Chapter 7

Authors note:Im literally doing a happy dance in the middle of my hotel room!Thanks for 35 reads!

Y/n's pov: I had sat in my room going through letters, i didnt bother reading any of Philips i already knew what every single one of them was about. I read some of the letters from Theodosia and some from Henry, i loved the way they wrote it always made me happier. I heard a sudden knock on my door as i read over some of Henrys letters "Come in" .

"Hey sweat pea Theodosia is outside on the front porch she said she wanted to "Hang out and do kid stuff" but you guys arent kids anymore so i dont get why she would say that but she seems very suspicous.." my father whispered.

I got up out of my seat making my way to the door "Why are you keeping her outside and also she probably doesnt want to tell you because your nosey dad" i walked down the stairs and he followed

"I'm not keeping her outside she decided to stay out there and hey! I am not nosey"
He rebuttaled

"Alright father I'll see you later" i sighed as i reached the front door and left "Hey Theo" i greeted her as we met face to face at the door

"Hey! I've gotta show you something" she grabbed my hand and basically dragged me down the front walkway of our house and out of the gate. "Its so cool you're head is gonna like explode! I swear it'll be awesome!" She was jumping up and down like a toddler in a candy store

I groaned. "What is it? And why are you dragging me down the street is it that important?"

"Yes and it's important to me and it'll be important to you when you see it!" She giggled.

We had finally gotten to where she was taking me. An abandoned building. Awesome, wow...."Ok Theo..what's so great about this building?"

"I know its a little abandoned but you just have to go inside and look" she smlied and pushed me up the stairway.

"Uhm..alright" i walked in to lit candles, the ceiling had angels painted on them the floor was marble and someone stood in the middle of the floor, the person looked familiar but i couldn't quiet place it. "Uhm..hello?"

"Uhm hey Y/n.."

PHILIP?! why was he here. His voice echoed through the abandoned church.

"Why the hell are you here Philip?" I stopped dead in my tracks. Where was Theodosia i was going to rip her head off i turned around ready to walk off until he started talking

"Just listen to me..please" he sighed. "I know i messed up, i know i hurt you but everyday i think about you and it hurts.."

I walked closer to him curious about what elese he had to say since he thought he could just cry and apologize his way out of breaking my heart. I could see his face now, a small crack in the floor was the only thing that kept us apart but we were close enough to touch.

"Y/n i still love you so much, what i did was dumb and it was stupid and i feel so horrible but it was a mistake.."

We were now face to face, we looked at eachother for a minute before i felt tears well up in my eyes. I wanted to run away but i was stuck in my spot staring into his big brown eyes. I just wanted to forget everything that happened between us i just wanted to kiss him and act like nothing happened but i couldn't.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him. At this point i wanted to dig a hole right there crawl into it and die! He looked at me with his stupid sad eyes, it made me just want to kiss him and forget about everything else.

"Y/n we dont even have to be together just forgive me.." his hands touched me waist, i watched as he looked at my pink dress with a small smile. Fuck it. I kissed him, i couldn't help myself.

He kissed me back pulling me closer into him, i opened my eyes as we were kissing and i finally realized what i had done. Now i was giving him false hope that i wasnt mad at him still, i just wanted to pull away but i needed a moment to kiss him just a little longer. I felt tears fall down my face as we kissed, it felt like we were kissing for centuries but i had to pull away from it before i became trapped again.

I pulled away and backed up "Shit.." was all i could say, i turned on my heel and ran away i had to get the hell out of there

"Wait Y/n wait!" I heard Philip yell behind me but i couldn't wait i needed to go back home to dad i couldn't be here. I got out of the building to see Theo standing there all happy.

"So this was your plan?! To get me to fall for him again Theo did you forget the boy cheated on me?!" I was ready to slap her so hard.

"Y/n...i..I'm sorry i thought you would like it. I thought i was doing something good for my bestfriend.." her voice cracked as she spoke.

"He broke my heart Theo i cant get back with him after all the shit hes done i cant and i thought out of all people you would have known the most" i couldnt look at her right now i just needed to get home.

I ran into the street finding my way home, i just needed to cry on fathers shoulder right now.

I had finally got home, i ran through the gate and got into the house. My face was stained with tears and hurt . My father was sitting on the stairs and looked up at me, as soon as he saw me crying he jolted up off the stairs to comfort me.

He got on one knee and looked up at me "Whats wrong sweet pea?" He asked so worried about me.

"Philip and Theo and Theo tried to get me back with Philip and we kissed and i hate my self.." i said every word through a sob.

"Wait what?" He looked at me confused he didnt know what i was talking about

I had explained everything to him and he looked like his head was going to explode

"All of your friends are horrible sweet pea you need new ones." He said through his gritted teeth

"Dad. I dont want new friends i just wish Theo would have thought about me before she just did that.."

He sighed and hugged me "Alright..well..wash up dinner will be ready in a minute.."

I nodded and walked up to my room i just needed to think. I kissed him, my dumbass kissed him. I flopped down on the bed and sighed i just needed to cry some more. This day would forever go down in history as the dumbest mistake ive ever made in my life.

Authors note: i am so sorry this took so long to get out im not gon a procrastinate on this anymore sorrrryy