Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
"YOU CANT JUST STEAL THE COOKIES!" kairi screamed at mattia, i just rolled my eyes jokingly and focused back on the tv.
"what are you doing tomorrow?" mattia asked me, almost chocking kairi who still wants his cookies back.
"ugh actually i have a family festival i need to attend" i groaned at the thought, i never liked to sit there with all these rich people who think they're better.
"family festival huh?" mattia chuckled.
"not a family festival, a rich people festival" kairi joked, sitting back up, the cookies in his hands.
"who are you going to take as a partner this time?" kairi asked and i started to think, because i have no idea. i took kai with me two years ago, but since he dates noelle now i don't want to make her uncomfortable.
"maybe ale? i don't know" i sighed eating my oreo.
"mattia can go" kairi smiled brightly and i looked over to mattia who glared at kairi.
"really?" i asked, swallowing the last bit of my oreo.
"yes, of course he can. it'll be a good distraction too. y'know all we think and talk about is what happened last week" kairi muttered and i nodded.
i hate to say it, but it's honestly all i can think about. it feels like i'm shaking and it'll never stop, captured in my own thoughts.
"yea sure, if you're okay with it. it's pretty boring, just talking about money and stuff" i chuckled dryly and mattia rolled his eyes playfully.
"kay, i'll be there just don't leave me alone or something" mattia joked
"of course i won't" i rolled my eyes and looked at the tv
"good luck to see sean" kairi winked and i groaned
"who's that" mattia asked and kairi smirked before turning to mattia
"they were dating for awhile last year" kairi answered and i covered my face with a pillow
"it was just for two months" i mumbled putting the pillow down
"yeah and many things happened in these two months" kairi smirked and i smashed the pillow against his face.
"shut up now" i said and tried to change the subject.
"do you even know that noelle thinks you're ignoring her"
"she does?" he asked and i rolled my eyes
"yes you ducker"
"why do you replace fuck with duck?" mattia asked entering the conversation
"rich people aren't allowed to swear so they invent new words" kairi joked and mattia laughed.
"okay enough, i need to go home anyways, my mom thinks i'm acting sus and stuff" i chuckled standing up and saying goodbye to the boys.
i started to walk on the familiar streets that i walk on way too often lately. i hate that i can't spend that much time with alejandro and noelle anymore, and not even just them i miss all the other boys, but i'm just so scared being with someone else lately.
i never had nightmares, but it's been 5 days since i have a nightmares every night. i couldn't tell mattia how i barely sleep lately or how i slowly feel like i'm losing my happy side, because i know he's gonna blame himself and i don't want that. i care about him.
i can't tell him that i can't wear red anymore, or that i can't paint with red anymore or even see something red without panicking. it's just been so hard lately to do anything.
for 17 years olds who are involved in murder we're doing pretty good, but could i ever forget what happened that night? no.
"hey sadie, do you have a partner for tomorrow?" my mom asked me kindly and i sighed before answering.
"mattia"
"oh, okay. what about kai or alejandro? not that i want to change your mind but-"
"no, nah they both can't and mattia is a pretty good friend, i'll be fine" i smiled at her and she nodded before i entered my room and was attacked by my dog.
authors note: next chapter is probs gonna be good hahah
ALSO DONT BE SAD ITS GONNA BE MORE *debby ryan smirk* SLOWLY
