Healing Hearts (bxb)

Chapter 19 - Touch of a Lover

I was getting really impulsive wasn't I? I hadn't even taken a moment to think about the fact, that I apparently liked Kenneth as more than just a friend, but I didn't have to, because the only important thing was, that I knew I liked kissing him and he wanted to kiss me. We were still hugging each other, our lips moving against the other and carefully, I detached myself enough to  hold his face between my hands, making it all the more real and...better you could say. Kenneth hands went to my neck, pulling me closer and I let him, because I knew I liked it. 

After a moment of us just shyly kissing, getting used to the situation and waiting if one of us would pull away, frightened or even angry, Kenneth realized, that I really wanted this. That I liked it and so, it was like he opened a door inside his head, letting all of his desirers out as he deepened the kiss, stepping forwards and pushing me back a bit, with our lips still connected, until my back hit a tree behind me, at least thats what I'm guessing it was and I let him stand between my legs, pushing his whole body against me as his hands held my face, while he kissed me with all the need he had build up for so long. 

My hands from his cheeks rather moved to his hair, nestling in there, as I kissed him eagerly, panting at the feeling of having Kenneth in this way. As if we had communicated it out loud, our kiss grew slower, the sound of our lips caressing each other more intense and Kenneth took mine in his one last time, before pulling away, so that the tip of my nose was still brushing his, looking at me. We were both panting slightly, overwhelmed by what had just happened and I could see it clear as day in his eyes. He was afraid. Afraid he had now ruined everything or I would regret it, but in reality, I was overcome by happiness and joy. 

And I showed him that happiness as I cracked a wide grin, my hand from his hair moving to his jawline and slightly brushing my thumb over his skin, something so cheesy I had only ever seen in in romantic movies my former dates used to like to watch with me that always bored me to the bone, but I liked it with Kenneth, who let his lips tug into a wide smile as well as he realized, that we were going to be ok. My face was probably still red from the crying, but honestly, when was my face not red? 

"Hi" Kenneth grinned, making me chuckle, as we stayed this close and pressed up against the tree. "Hey" I smiled, as we looked at each other, not too sure how to go from here. So I leaned forward again, embracing his lips in another kiss and Kenneth let me, pushing me against the tree again, as the heat of the moment got the best of us, but we didn't complain. I had kissed quite a few girls in my time, but somehow, this was even more exciting than when I thought I would be getting lucky with a girl. Maybe because Kenneth and I actually had a connection and liked each other, but whatever it was, it made me not want this kiss to ever end.

I didn't even know where my mind was, I guess I was just not thinking at all and let my body guide me as Kenneth's one hand found the back of my head, slightly grabbing my hair, but at the same time, protecting me from hitting the tree a little too hard and hurting myself, while his other found my waist, something that was most definitely different than when I was kissing girls. They never really touched me like that, but I couldn't say I hated it. I wanted Kenneth close in whatever way I could get, so I just concentrated on falling into this heated kiss and I let my hands in his hair slightly tug on it, as the need for more or even just this, but forever, grew more intense by the minute. 

I wanted to explore his mouth and when my tongue silently asked fro entrance, Kenneth let me in, with a slight chuckle in his voice, as he realized I was trying to take control, but was a little too awkward to do so. But I didn't care. I only deepened the kiss and let his tongue in my mouth as well, as we each tried to make ourselves and the other feel good, both getting hung up on that instead of doing this together. But it was alright, this was our first kiss, what do you expect?