She's Our Girl

But i'm not her choice

SJ was shaking whilst walking off now she'd lost both her parents, she felt as if she was alone. She sat there in silence thinking.
   I wasn't on my own but I sort of wish I was. If I could only will it hard enough wings would sprout from shoulder blades open up like umbrellas and carry me over the roof tops , I would soar away from everyone and everything.
I'm not old enough I don't wanna be on my own (SJ sobbed). I can't let anyone see me- not the real me. I don't want to be on my own!
           Fingers saw SJ was upset and went to find out why.
"SJ?" He questioned his niece she was shaking and crying uncontrollably. He put his arm round her but she looked numb "SJ?" She said nothing except 4 words "I'm not her choice"
        Georgie stood there realising hitting her "I..I.. I hit her Charlie, I never do that I-" Georgie quivers "she'll be okay Georgie- she knows you were angry"
       Fingers hugged his niece "SJ baby talk to me." He coaxed "I want to go home." She croaked fingers looked at her puzzled "but SJ you love Tours!" Fingers retorted "I want to go home" she repeated, fingers nodded "let's go tell boss man then." SJ nodded.
They trudged to where Captain James and Georgie stood "fingers?" He questioned.
"SJ.. SJ wants to go home sir" fingers said Captain stared at SJ "SJ is this true?" SJ nodded "Sapphire-jade I need a verbal answer please." He continued SJ looked at him with pain her eyes. "Well that's not your choice!" Georgie replied. SJ looked at her "what?" SJ whispered "you can't leave. I don't allow it. Listen SJ, Charlie is important to me, this mission is important to me."  SJ let that words ring round her head. They continued to talk but she wasn't hearing. Those words boiling up inside her. "I'm important too mum! I'm important too!"she started to walk away Captain James tried to stop her. " Let me go! Let me go!" SJ stormed off but Captain James followed her "SJ please let's talk!" SJ turned round "there's nothing left to talk about- I'm not her choice, you are." SJ said. Captain James looked at her "SJ come on that's Unfair!" SJ rolled her eyes "life's unfair" SJ retorted. "SJ do you know what love is?" SJ rolled her eyes again "Love is like Gravity just because she loves someone else it doesn't stop her from loving you, it just means she also loves someone else." Captain James said. SJ's eyeline fell "it still doesn't make me her choice" SJ replied.
SJ fell asleep that night feeling empty. Georgie came into the tent- SJ looked so much like her father. Georgie sat on the side of her bed. She stroked SJ's hair and whispered to her "I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry- I get it it's just moving to fast for you right now, we can slow right down!" Georgie kisses SJ'd forehead "baby if you want to go home you can I understand darling." Georgie finish SJ's eyes fluttered open, "mum, why does it hurt so much, why doesn't god love me and why is life so unfair" SJ asked "I don't know baby I'm sorry but aye, life has plans!" Georgie held her daughter hugging her and rocking her gently "I love you" Georgie whispered into her daughter's head.