She's Our Girl

A cloud full of tears

Ooo a double update you lucky people 😂x
SJ started to cry, Georgie found her & pulled her into an embrace she looked at Antonio "please.." she began "I'm sorry" he whispered.
They both collapsed to the floor crying Georgie holding SJ both Shaking.
It had been about 2 hrs they'd stopped crying they were numb.
They both stood, Georgie supporting a weak SJ as they walked to the base, as the neared the tents monk came out "how is he! How's-" he stopped dead still when he say SJ's face, she ran to him they both hugged "no.. no he-he can't" monk cried. SJ shook crying.
That night she lay in bed staring at the ceiling and she whispered
'Dad.... I don't know if you can hear me, or if you even then, I don't know if you'd listen to your daughter's prayer, I know your not religious, but dad I need you to send me a sign, i-I've lost everything I've lost my friends, I've lost you, i- I've lost fingers. Dad won't you send a sign, I'm running out of hope & time. Please dad, please, send be some sort of something.'
She awoke in the early hours shivering she reached for a jumper and placed it over herself. It smelt strange she read the label 'E.Harte' her fathers, but she left that in a box under his bed. It was a sign, her father would protect her. Shield was dead- so was so many she loved. But this was the reckoning, and maybe just maybe that reckoning was her.
        The next few days were numb, she flew home, spent a lot of time with her family grieving, she was dreading the funeral, she'd been too to many recently.
     She was told she didn't have to return to school but she did, it kept her distracted.
          On a gloomy cloudy afternoon noon her 6th period had just finished she exited in her own little world and just kept walking & walking until she came to a park, she sat on the   Swings for what must have been hours as the sky had shifted it was almost dark.
    
       "Hey Stranger" she turned to the voice "uncle Charlie" she whispered as he hugged her she didn't realise it but she was crying "it's okay darling let it out" he said holding her tight "h-he died because of me, because I couldn't run- it's my fault he's gone!" Captain looked at her and wiped her tears "no it's not, you couldn't have stopped him getting shot, it's not your fault"  SJ's eyeline fell "that's not what auntie Marie thinks"
Flash back
'SJ sat on the stairs and came down when Grace called her, Georgie had gone to de-brief, Max & Grace were in the kitchen and Marie was sitting in the living room, SJ sat in the living room, you could cut the tension with a knife. She saw a strange look cloud Marie's face "Auntie Marie... can you tell me what's wrong please?" She said she got no response Marie stood up and knocked SJ's school photo in a frame to the ground the glass shattered, the smiley girl fractured. "What? Why would you?" SJ was cut off by Marie "just get the glass cleaned up and she went to walk out the room. "Marie I know you can't look at me" SJ sobbed, Marie stopped at the sound of her voice, "do you really Hate me that much?" SJ questioned "you blame me for what happened to fingers don't you." SJ continued Marie tensed hearing his name. "Just say it!" SJ yelled "YES I DO! YES I BLAME YOU!" Marie shouted then her voice softened "he had his whole life ahead of him and you've taken it away, I can't forgive you- I'll never forgive you" she left the room, she left SJ to the company of her own tears'
Captain sighed "she sai- look she doesn't mean it, she loves you SJ, So Much."
       The drive home was silent, Charlie walked SJ to the door, she went in and started going up the stairs "SJ?" Georgie called after her then she got a text.
From Charlie:
Just Dropped Mini Harte off x
     She felt relief that SJ was back.
SJ sat crying her heart out in her room, when she heard the door open, someone sat on the end of her be- Auntie Marie.
      Marie looked at her niece's tear stained face. SJ sat up looking at her aunt. To SJ's surprise Marie Pulled her into a hug.
They cried together that night she kissed SJ's forehead and whispered
'I'm sorry baby I'm sorry- I love you'