We Don't Talk Anymore

Chapter 16 (LALISA)

At her room...

"Did he just ask me to be his girlfriend?" I cupped my cheeks when I feel heat covering all over my face.

I looked at my phone, "But right after his question, I ended my call. I am rude at that part, what if he is mad at me right now? What should I do then I have no choice, Hanbin oppa is walking towards me. What if he caught us talking, I don't know what will happen next?" I let out a heavy sigh and hopped in my bed.

"He didn't even text me afterwards." I close my eyes and started to stomp my feet, "Ehh Lisa you're the one who suddenly cut your call after her confession so you should the one who texted him first."

Lot of things keeps on echoing in my mind, "What if he's mad? What if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore? What if he found someone else?" Ah Lisa you're so dumb.

It feels really weird, yah weird 'coz it's my first time to feel like this, "Did I love him too? Is it how love feels? Why is it so hard? Am I ready? Am I strong enough?" Damn you self, why you don't stop on thinking and text him already.

I unlock my phone and search for his name, I stare at his name for almost 10 seconds but in the end I gave up. I locked again my phone and buried my face in my bed. I lift my head and breath. "I can't take it anymore. I need some help."

I walk out to my room and headed to Jisoo Unnies room, I knocked 3 times before spinning the knob and great it's not lock. I saw her lying on her bed facing on the right side with her earbuds. I walk slowly and surprised her when I hopped on her bed.

"Oh my heart." She shouts with her highest pitch ever (LMAO) "Lisa. My god you will kill me in a sudden heart attack, why are you here? She said while putting off her earbuds.

I sit beside her, my back pressing her headboard, "Ahmmm... I need your advice Unnie." I said while playing my fingers.

She turned around and faces me, "Just ask me anything except love or relationships." She said

I look at her disappointedly, "Yah Unnie, I haven't start yet but you already rejected me." I said and crossed my arm.

She move and sit beside me, "So it's about JK? Are you dumb or you are just teasing me?" She said sarcastically.

"Wei? I went at you first 'coz you're the oldest. I thought you can give me a more mature advice." I said while making my way out of her bed.

She sighed heavy and chuckled, "Is this how you slapped on my face that I'm old but still single huh?" she throw me her small pillow as I run toward her door.

I close the door and shout at her one more time, "Sorry Unnie, try to flirt sometimes. Your clock is running remember." I laugh when I heard her shouting my name.

I turned around and look the closed door of Jennie Unnie and Rose, "So which of the two of you can help me tonight? Hmm..." And I choose Rose. I move closer to her door and check the knob, it's not locked too. I wonder why these girls are not locking their doors. Anyways I walk inside and I saw her putting some clay mask on her face. She glance at me once but she immediately withdrew her gaze and focus at her reflection in the mirror.

This girl is really obsessed with her beauty; I saw my reflection in her mirror when I sit in the corner of her bed (FYI: her vanity mirror placed a cross in her bed.)

She looks at my reflection in her mirror, she widened her eyes, and I think she is asking what I am doing here. So I start to say my purpose, "Ahmmm JK wants me..." I was cut when she show me her phone. I was surprised with her sudden action; I saw that she type something from her phone so I read it, "I am at my beauty routine, and I don't want to hear your drama. Instead go to Jennie Unnie, she is in a relationship for so long, she will listen to you and help too if you have a problem with JK. So help yourself to find your way out. Good Night! I love you." I grit and look at her in disbelief but she just rolled her eye.

I stand up lazily and walk towards her door. "Yah Rose, your mask looks like a poop and seeing you wearing that are so funny, chipmunks with poop all over her face." I look back at her to see her reaction and I swiftly run when I saw her death glare.

It's the last door; I am having my hesitation in knocking at Jennie Unnie's door. JK and she are always fighting, I doubt if it's fine to ask her about my problem.

Now I am standing in her front door but there's still hesitance in my mind. I was about to knock when suddenly the door open. We both shocked, holding her chest she let out a heavy sighed. "My God Lisa, what are you doing there?" she asked me.

I look down and draw an invisible image with my fit. Why if it's Jennie Unnie, I always feel nervous. Is it because of her intimidating eyes?

She pats my shoulder, "Is it about JK?" she asked.

I drop my jaw and look up to her with my wide eyes, "How did you know?" I asked.

She just chuckled and flips her hair, "Because I know you." She said, "Want to talk? Come here join me at the kitchen, I'm hungry. You want ramen?" she added.

"Yes" I answered cheerfully and walk after her.

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*Time Skips*

"So he asked you to be his girlfriend, and you unintendedly end your call? That's it?" She asked.

I just nodded and pout.

She sighed and rests her back to the chair, "How do you feel right now?" She asked me.

I let out a heavy sighed take a mouthful of ramen; I chew it and swallow while thinking what I really feel. Jennie Unnie is waiting at my answer impatiently as I saw her crossed her arm and raised her brow.

"I feel nervous and worried." I said with my head low.

She move closer and put my chin up using her index finger, she's like a badass bitch, "Look at me, can you please elaborate your answer? Try to explain why you feel nervous and worried. Is it different?" She said.

I move backward and rest my back at the chair, "Okay, I am nervous of the possible outcome if I already say YES to him. And I am worried about my feelings, there are so many questions in my mind like did I already love him too even though I just met him a few days ago, Yes I know he likes me for so long but what about me? But every time I am asking myself about my feeling toward him, I am also worried that what if he gets tired of waiting and he found someone new?"

I looked up to her, "There's a part of my heart that always feel pain every time I am thinking of losing him, Unnie." I said

After hearing all my words she move and stand up, "So accept his confession, don't feel nervous of the possible outcome because outcome always come after all the process, as long as you love and enjoy your process you will definitely have a positive outcome. But still it's your decision." She smile and pats my shoulder, "But my best advice for you is... you have to be strong... always." She said before she walks away and went to her room.

I close my eyes trying to consume all of her advice and let out a deep breath. "Okay Bunny, let's end it now." I stand up fiercely and walk toward my room. I grab my phone from my bed and search his name from my messenger. "There you are." I said, "So what should I gonna tell to him? Hmmm..."

I walk back and forth to my room, thinking of what to say to him.

I checked the time from my wall clock, "It's 1:48am, and he may be sleeping at this time. Okay, so it's perfect. I will at least delay my embarrassment if I texted him right now."

"Hmm Sent. I think that's enough...Time to sleep Lili." 

"To be continued..."