Bertholdt x Mikasa (BeruMika)

Eighteen

~Mikasa's POV~

I don't know what to do, what am I doing? I'm just going along with this. I was just moments away from my death and now I'm running off with the one who was going to kill me. But it was Bertholdt, it is Bertholdt. This just feels likes too much to process all in one day, I probably just need some rest. Hopefully we'll get to where ever soon. The run into the woods was bumpy in every stride he took. Up and down, side to side, tumble and rumble.

But why is he doing this, at of all times he's deciding to do a bold, yet dangerous thing. And I'm putting myself at risk by just going with it. Where is he taking us anyways? After a few minutes I decided to rest my body by sitting on is shoulder whilst leaning my back to his humongous neck. I quickly got comfortable and wrapped myself around in ODM gear in case of anything.

And I caught some Zzzzz's. . .

~Bertholdt's POV~

I'm ecstatic she's still with me. My Mikasa, My love, My girl. She wasn't complaining, crying, or speaking at all as a matter of fact. I was fine with it, but it just didn't seem like her, so it was too off for me to handle. Asides from all of that, I really have no idea how to return to my human form, and me being this-- ugh this monster! This explains a whole lot of those black outs I started getting a few years ago. But Reiner and Annie have mentioned that too, . .as well as mysteriously waking in random areas after blackouts. I can't let my mind wander to such a place, all I should be focused on right now, is getting Mikasa and I to safety in the mean time.

If I could talk I'd tell her where I'm taking us to right now: a cottage my grandmother used to live in.. .she passed the year that I joined to train as a cadet. But I guess she'll just have to wait and see for herself, when we arrive there.

I constantly kept looking back, being careful not to have Mikasa fall of from my shoulder. Levi's squad and others were trailing us for a while, but eventually retreated after 30 minutes. I could hear Eren yelling for Mikasa and asking her "Why are you running away with the enemy; get up; Mikasa please no; come back now!" and some other crazy and meaningless things. Don't get me wrong, what he was screaming wasn't stupid and senseless, I understand where he's coming from, but he needs to calm down! I'm still a human being too and he's also a titan shifter. . . but he. . he didn't kill thousands of people like me. . . *a weird horrific noise exits Bertholdt's titan mouth from all the anguish of his thoughts and realisation.*

"Bertholdt?" Mikasa called to me in a raspy and tired voice.

Oh goodness I've woken her :(      ;;-;;

I turned my head slightly, to let her know that I'm listening and can understand her.

"I know that you can't talk or anything specific, but I was just wondering where we are headed. You've been running for almost an hour and--" she cut herself off with a yawn. "And uhm I'm still shooken up about you being THE colossal titan and all. . .so I would just at least like to know where you're heading us to?"

I didn't know how to answer. Like i literally didn't! I couldn't talk so--OH! I can just sign letters to her with my hands.

I made a C with my hand, an O, a T and dragged it to make two Ts, and so on with the rest of the letters. I didn't know if she understood or not since she was silent.

Mikasa pat my neck twice and said "Alright ole' Berty, i'll be getting back to sleep now. Wake me when we get there okay?" She kissed my head again and went back to her sleeping. I'm not sure if she's entirely accepting with this, I mean she keeps lovingly kissing the side of my titan head. . . I love it but, I haven't even come to terms with this