Can't this be 'happily ever after'?

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JANUS's POV

At least they trust me when I say Virgil be fine. I'm sure he will but I don't know for sure... Remus is sitting next to me, handing out the cards. Logan did the thing where he zoned out and did that weird thing, he does at four again. He does it every couple of days, but he never ever talks about it. No one knows what happened or why he does it. He's obviously not mentally stable but I stopped questioning it. Remus hands me another card, causing our fingers to brush. I pull back, too quickly and he notices.
"Janus... wh-why's you pull back?" he looks slightly hurt.
"I- uh... no reason, I just got one of those weird shiver things... you know?"
"Oh, uh, yeah." He keeps handing out the cards. Logan and I make eye contact, he smirks at me, I roll my eyes. Logan is the only person I have ever told about anything, it's not my fault he's observant. I'd never admit it to Remus, but I do like him. More then anyone I've ever met, to tell you the truth. He flirts with me all the time, but I ignore it, he flirts with every person who isn't taken... There's nothing special about me. Why should I take it differently?

"Snap!" Remus yells. Patton looks confused.
"I thought we were playing cheat...?" I snort.
"Remus says confusing things a lot, Pat." Logan kindly explains.
"We're not playing snap?" Remus pouts and takes the card he just put down off the pile.
"We're playing cheat," I say, rolling my eyes at him, "when do we ever play snap?"
"We should, it's fun."
"It's a boring, illogical game." I retort.
"You're a boring, illogical person." He sticks his tongue out.
"Remus have you ever talked to yourself? You're simply dumb!" I raise an eyebrow.
"Hey, no fair! I said you were boring not dumb!" He moves his face closer to mine, it happens when we argue.
"Yeah well you are dumb. Also, have you ever looked in a mirror, or did the mirror break every time because your so ugly?" We frown harder at each other, our noses touching.
"Oh yeah, well I bet your ass you can't punch harder than I can!"
"Do you want me to show you?!" I shout, lifting a hand in the air and balling it into a fist.
"Go ahead, it might distract me from the pain I feel inside!" I freeze and he falls back against the couch, putting his head in his hands.
"I- I'm sorry." I whisper. "You're not dumb or ugly or anything..."
"I am, Jan, what you said was true. I know you think about me like that, no need to hide it." His voice breaks.
"I don't think that... I..."
"Hate me, I know. I'm just a nuisance to you. You would rather if I wasn't here. I know that."
"What- no... I-" can't say what I'm thinking. What do I say? "Remus I'm sorry."
"No, no you're not." We whack my hand away from his face and stands up. "I'm going to my room. Have fun playing what ever you were playing." He storms off, chucking his cards on the table. I stare at them, floating to the ground.
"I love you." I whisper.
"Well, go tell him that then, you idiot!" Logan says, sharply.
"I- We both know I can't."
"Why? Because you want to keep your pride? Jesus, Janus. Just go tell him!"
"I- fine." I grumble, standing up and walking over to Remus' and my room. I knock gently on the door, "can I come in, Remus?"
"No, go away. You're a dickhead."
"I know. I'm sorry, please let me in." there's silence on the other end for a minute but then the door opens slightly. I push it open and find Remus curled up in a ball on his bed, crying. What have I done? I sit down a fair distance away from him. "I messed up, didn't I?" he nods into his knees. "How can I make it up to you?"
"You can't. What's said has been said, you can't take it back." He growls.
"Okay," I sigh, I guess I'll just have to tell him, "I know I've never said this before, but I mean it. I love you, Remus." He looks up with a look of shock on his face.
"Wh-what?"
"I love you..." I try to smile but that's quite hard when you're dying inside.
"You do?" I nod and look away.
"Okay, that's all." I say, standing up and leaving the room.
"I love you too, Janus." Remus says when I reach the door. I stop for a second and smile, then continue leaving.

a/n: just felt like doing demus for a second lol