Momma

Chapter 4

I got up in the morning getting ready for baby proofing and after breakfast and coffee I went to the store to get all the items needed. after arriving home and putting up the new coffee table and baby proofing the most dangerous cabinets, I was in the middle of putting the electric covers in when the doorbell rang i opened the door to a women in a suit with a clipboard. " is the Mrs. Kendra's house" "Yes ma'am that's me may i ask who you are?" " Oh silly me i'm Nancy from CPS i'm here to do a random home check to see if its safe enough for a child to live here." I let her on in and she immediately started walking to the living room looking around she saw the plastic boxes of Walmart baby proofing kits and looked at me and smiled. "I see we are already starting on the baby proofing huh?" " Yes ma'am i have thought it was best to go ahead and get that done first. So that i could next focus on getting the room ready if it seemed like i had a shot at adopting a child ." She nodded at that then started walking into the kitchen checking all my cabinets and my pantry and fridge looking at all the food and took note that i had already child proofed the cleaning cabinet she nodded again, she started walking down the halls and opening doors going through things even going through my cabinets in my bathroom. after about forty minutes she finally stopped and turned towards me. " your house is perfect and I don't see any reason in your house why you shouldn't be approved on this end but i will be back a couple of times to check just to make sure things stay that way." After telling her that i work as a nurse at the local hospital and what days i'm normally off she left. i felt so happy that i had passed another part of the adoption process.

As the days progressed i passed more and more of the test an trials and training that i had to take before i was legally allowed to adopt. I still haven't heard anything about the little girl or her parents since the hospital. with only a month left i was starting to become worried that they had found a relative that did want custody of her. and they didn't want to tell me cause they thought i wouldn't finish the process so i could legally adopt a child. i mean i would feel a little hurt by it but i would still like to adopt one of the other children. As i was in the middle of another shift at work when my phone had gone of i told one of the other nurses that i was gonna take my over due lunch break. i grab lunch in the cafeteria and then checked to see who i had a missed call from. It was the local police station i wonder if it was news on the girls parents, I quickly called them back and told the man who answered the phone my name and that they had just called. He put me through to the young lady who called she informed me that they had information on the girls parents and that it was't good news. She told me that they had found the body of the little girls mother and one of the men that had died at the hospital was her father. they think that they dropped her off on my door step when they realized that they were about to be attacked by a rival gang. in order too keep her safe and that her mother had led some of the other gang members away where she was badly beaten and left for dead. the shock that i felt hearing this she wasnt just abandoned her mother was trying to do the best possible thing for her daughter at the time to even put her on my door step everyone in the neighbor hood knew i was a nurse. An who better to leave a baby with then a nurse I felt so guilty on all the things i had thought of the little girls parents . I ended up having to hang up and run to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face to help calm my nerves. My guilt was starting to eat at me i treated her father an didnt even know it her father died on my watch, which only furthered my guilt about the whole thing that poor sweet little baby will never grow up to know her parents because her mother sacrificed her self and her father died fighting and here i just assumed the worst. i finished the rest of my shift and arrived home opened the fridge and pulled out a tub of Ben and Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream and ate my feelings out while im my sweat pants watching Tv. the next day i was of again and since there was only a month left of my process i went ahead and started buying the stuff i need for a Hundred acre woods themed room. After a few more weeks and i had passed everything and was waiting one last home check . which happened to be today she came and did everything she did the last couple of times and smiled when she left . a couple days later i had talked with my co workers and my bosses about the fact that i was trying to adopt a child and sometime soon i may use my vacation leave to get him/her adjusted to living with me they were all super support of my choice and told them to let them know and they would get it covered. By the time my next day off had come around i had already bought cute little outfits both gender neutral that said grandpa's little helper and Grandma's always right on the front of them and have given them to them. To say they were surprised would have been an understatement they asked what the room plan was when i explained my idea they offered to paint the walls without me even having to ask.