The One

Chapter 44

"Thank you again for this," I say to Jake.

"Its your birthday and you need some cheering up. Since the party I have noticed you different. Like more down."

I breath, then exhaling out. "No, i'm fine. Its just that something took me by surprise."

"Ok, well happy birthday again."

I walk around the apartment greeting everyone then walk to my room to lay down for a minute. I rest my head on the pillow and look up the ceiling. My phone blares. I take it out and see Harry's name.

"What does he want? Why can't he leave me alone?" I say talking to myself. I deny his call and rest my head back again. Couple seconds later the phone keeps ringing but I put it on silence, then Kendall walks in.

"You alright? You don't like the party?"

"No, its perfect thanks to Jake, he did a great job."

"Then whats wrong?"

"I wonder, will I ever be able to feel happy again? I've tried Kendall, i've tried, but nothing seems to make me smile, actually smile where that smile is on because I am actually happy."

"Ariana, you are happy. You are here where he can't reach you. Is that not what you want?"

"No I do I love it here, and I don't want to be reached by Harry ever. But there's something that is not letting me be happy. I moved on, but I feel like Harry took something away from me .... my happiness. The feeling of actually being happy."

"Remind yourself that you are strong, and that you have control over yourself. Harry hurt you to the point where you could have died in that room without eating, talking or anything. You will find happiness again, there are guys out there who would die to have a chance to love you."

"Thanks Kendall."

"Now go out there and try to have fun its your 18th birthday girl!"

I stand from bed and walk out, my phone in my hand rings. I look at it and see a text from Harry again.

*Ariana I know you won't answer me, and I know its your birthday. I want to wish you a happy birthday you probably won't even read this but I know you don't want to speak to me at all but I just want to let you know, everything I felt for you was real. I loved you and still do and you have no idea how much it is killing me to not hear your voice or see you. I love you.
- H *

I delete his text and block him number. I am so done now with him, good bye Harry. I breath in and out for about a minute and the walk up to Jake.

We dance, we drink, we talk & laugh, we play spin the bottle which I had to kiss Jake on the cheek for a minute, not a good idea since we are close friends. We also threw eggs out the window to our neighbors in the front building. This party is so fun, I would like to thank Jake for putting this together.

•••

Monday

"Gosh I forgot to do that assignment for Mr.Smith," I say.

"You can borrow mine," Jake interrupts.

"Thanks dude," I reply.

He smiles to me and takes out his homework for me to copy down.

After 3rd period Tom our principal makes an announcement as people walk the corridors. "Attention students for lunch there will be a person from NYU at the library to talk about university, and to fill our forms."

Kendall quickly haves a hold of my hand and says "we have to apply."

"Apply? To University?"

"Yes, we are going to have to apply soon, I mean we graduate in less than 2 months."