She spent a lot of time in the hospital. Ayaw niyang iwan si Thirdy. Natatakot na baka mangyari ulit ang kagaya dati.
"Bea, uwi ka na muna. Kami na muna ni Sj magbabantay." Anton said worried about her.
"Anton, he texted me." she said but still staring at Thirdy.
Anton just let her talk, "He said that he will continue to fight fires for me, he's willing to to be defeated, he's willing to do it all. But Unfortunately, hindi na niya hawak ang tadhana" she's crying now.
"I should have responded"
"I should have explained"
"I should have told him I love him already" she's crying so loud now. Anton hugs her. Trying to remind her that he'll be fine kahit hindi rin siya sigurado kung magiging okay ang kaibigan.
The doctor said hindi alam if kelan gigising si Thirdy. At kahit pa magising siya, hindi sigurado kung maalala niya pa ang lahat ng alam niya. Msyadong malakas ang impact ng pagkabangga sakanya. Thirdy was drunk that night papunta sa bahay nila Bea.
Kahit hindi sabihin nila Anton, sure si Bea na sinisisi siya ng lahat dahil sa nangyari kay Thirdy.
She waited for days,
weeks,
and
months
And when he finally woke up, everyone's rejoicing. He remembered everyone but her.
"Nurse, patawag naman sila Mama sa labas" Thirdy blurted out noong tiningnan siya.
She forced herself not to cry in front of him. She nodded. Everyone's looking at her. Trying to guess what will be her next move.
She went out, "Tita, he's awake and looking for you po" she smiled but her tears are failing her.
Mozzy hugged her na parang hindi niya na kailangan ng explanation. The doctor told them that this can happen.
"I'm going home na po." she said
"Are you sure?"
"Yes po"
Mozzy just looked at her and watch her go. That's the last time she saw him. The last time she heard his voice. The last time she felt so happy. She's thankful now that he is okay. Tama na din siguro na nabura siya sa isip niya. He will never remember tha pain she gave. Okay na siya don.
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After 1 year
She's busy typing on her laptop when the barista shouted "Iced Americano for Thirdy"
Napatigil siya at agad tumingin sa counter.
"Marami namang Thirdy sa mundo" but her eyes are still glued to the counter waiting for the person named Thirdy to get his drink.
A few more seconds, a tall guy got his coffee. Humarap ito causing for their eyes to meet. Agad niyang iniwas ang tingin niya at nagtype ulit sa laptop. Her heart is palpitating.
"Kape ka kasi nang kape, Beatriz" she whispered to herself
"Hi, Miss! Is this seat taken? Wala na kasing other chairs. Promise i'll transfer kapag mag may nabakante."
She stared at him. She missed that voice. She miss his hugs, his jokes. She miss everything about him.
She didn't answer and just gather her things at pinagsiksikan ito sa bag niya. Agad siyang tumayo at naglakad papaalis. Binilisan niya ang lakad niya hanggang sa may narinig siyang tumawag sakanya.
"Miss!"
she didn't look back.
"Bea" She stopped walking. She's frozen now.
He chuckled
"You forgot your ID." he handed her the ID and smiled
"Uhm uh Thank you"
"Welcome! You didn't have to leave tho. Sorry for invading your personal space. Do you want to go back? Sa iba nalang ako makikishare" he smiled again scratching his head
he looks so good.
"Uh no. Aalis na ko. May emergency. You can have my table. Ingat sa pagddrive" she walks away again.
Thirdy looks back at her, curious now.
Bea drives faster with no destination in mind. Her heart is not calming down.
I can't afford to lose anyone anymore. I wanted to stay so I can go experience his love and warmth one more time. But I know deep down in my heart that life is unfair, that a day will come and life will remind me that love will never be enough for fate to be merciful.
