Cinderella? NO

ABDALLAH

I called and asked Imran what he discussed with Maryam and he told me everything. I also told him that I told her what I feel about her and how she left me standing. For once I wanted to hold her back but I remembered I had no right to touch her and words boycotted my mouth so I just stood and let her get away. But I made a silent prayer begging Allah to not let her get away from me in the final stage. He asked "What about your biggest secret; your crown?" giving me an unpleasant look "She'll know Imran, not now. I have to know how she feels 1st. and you know Imran, I shocked her but I felt positive and she didn't push me away. So I have hope" I grinned like a baby "May Allah make things easy for you" he prayed. I have been praying for Allah to make things easy for me but didn't tell him what I really want. I didn't ask Him to make her say yes because I don't know if I am really into this war but I really don't want her to say no. When she says yes, I am going to fight till my last breath to see that our love wins over the barriers of our cultures and my crown. I don't want to take her into the mud with me but what to do, we have to be dirty to wash ourselves (I know it doesn't make sense).
I went to dad's chambers but he was away. I saw folders on his table and opened. They contained my every move and Maryam's. I called Imran and told him about dad's eyes on Maryam. Imran told me he'll take care of it and call me later. He called me later and said he told Zahra to take Maryam away and she said it was on her mind already. But he told me that he told Zahra not to tell him where she is taking Maryam because him knowing might cause a problem, maybe all his conversations are recorded also. Imran knows the level my dad can stoop. I almost gave up, thinking how difficult I am going to make her life. Imran told me to tell Maryam about my identity before things get complicated but I told him to have more patience. When I tell her about my crown, there's no way she'd agree to be with me, but if she doesn't know, I have hope for her acceptance. And I am going to blackmail her with it. A 'white blackmail' (Is there's anything like that?).
I finally came out clear and asked Allah(swa) to choose the best for her, if she's going to really suffer in this, I asked Allah to give her someone better than me and give me sabr(patience) to accept his qadr(decree). I don't know if I'll ever fall in love with someone else, maybe I'll just get married and rule. When I go to Jannah, I'll ask Allah to give her husband a hoor (maiden in paradise) and give me Maryam. Just thinking about it breaks my heart but again, this dunya is not Jannah. We don't always get what you want and Hamdillah (praise be to Allah) life is short and we are not here forever.