Playing With Fire & Ice

23

I lay awake as I stare out at the night sky. I should of knew that it was Sean's parents. As far as I can remember they never really liked me but they tolerated me. But going as far as to sabotage out marriage.

"Effie go to sleep please." I hear Sean mumble from beside me. "I know. I know." I sigh as I turn to him. Resting my leg above his I sigh as I get close to hus chest. Feeling Sean's hand on my thigh rubbing the skin I close my eyes.

"I've really missed this Effie. My sweet Effie." Sean whispered kissing my forehead. Smiling softly to myself, I glance upwards at Sean. He's still as handsome as when we were kids.
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"So are you still coming Sean?" I asked him over the phone. I sat in the living room hoping Sean would still come over so we could hang out like we used to. We were in junior year of high school and we are kind of drifting apart.

"I don't think so Effie. Paola says she wants to go on a date tonight." He says and I feel a small lump in my throat. "Okay. It's fine." I sigh lightly. "We can hang out tomorrow if you want." He tried. "Nah it's fine." I say before hanging up the phone.

I sigh as I pull my knees up to my chest. "He's not coming is he?" I hear and I look seeing mama sitting beside me. "It's fine. I'm alright. Its doesn't matter if he wants to hang out with Paola he can." I say blankly holding back my tears.

"It's okay honey. I know you like him." Mama said before she left the room. Deciding that I should go for a run, I get up changing my night clothes for a track suit and sneackers. Leaving the house I jog down the street.

Why did I feel like this? Like I'm not good enough to even be around him. I liked Sean and I had hope it was reciprocated. But then he started dating Paola and totally forgot about me. He pushed me away like scum of the earth.

Stopping when I thunder rolling in the sky before I felt rain pouring down on me. Looking up, I see a diner across the street and through the window I could see Sean and Paola were eating comfortably in a booth. Shaking my head I walk back to my house.

"It doesn't matter. I'll be fine." I grumbled to myself.

The next morning I woke up took a shower and got dressed in my usual sweatpants and hoodie with my hair up. Usually Sean would pick me up but I know that won't be the case. I drove my car to school parking before just heading inside. I didn't bother with breakfast instead just going to my class with my bookbag.

"Hey!" I hear. "Effie wait up." The voice says again but I ignore it. "Effie didnt you hear me calling you." Sean said as he got closer but I ignored him. "Look I-" Sean started. "Save it. I don't want to hear it." I say coldly as I enter the classroom

The whole day went on like this since Sean was in my classes. He would always try and talk to me but I simply ignored it. We haven't hung out properly in a month since he keeps blowing me off for Paola.

"Hmph aye dude." I hear and I turn around seeing Pete. "What do you want?" I asked bored. "You look like a dyke." He said. "Is something wrong with that?" I said. "Your a girl aren't you. Dress like one. Maybe boys will want you." Pete said and I smirked.

"Your masculinty is so frail you can't handle a girl in sweats. But I'll dress more like a girl just for you Pete." I said before heading out the school doors.

I headed home for the day. When the next day came I smirked slightly as I took a shower before putting on lotion and deodarant. Going to my closet I put on my underwear before slipping on a yellow tube tube with midrise light blue jeans and black flats. Letting my hair fall in its natural curls I smirk.

Getting in my car I drive off the school parking in the usual spot. I step out my car instantly hearing whispers. Walking calmly to my locker, I sigh lightly when I grab my book.

"Well well, look what we have hear. See you like more feminine." Pete said smirking as he stoof beside my locker. "Yeah but think a little more before you judge a person off of how their dressed." I say. "Hey mamas. Can I get your number?" I hear being yelled at me as I see a guy from the basketball team.

"Nah baby girl can I get your number?"  I hear and I scoff but before I could move I felt a familar arm around my waist.

"What do you think your doing?" I hear from behind me. "Having some fun of course." I smile but it was anything but happy as I turn around facing Sean. "Mamas can I get your number?" I hear. "No you can't she has someone." Sean growled. I glared at him. "Says who?" I asked and Sean glared at me before he grabbed my hips kissing me.

Pushing him away I slap him. "I'm not some side piece and I'm not a appetizer." I said to him before walking away. "Your not going anywhere Effie. You are exposed." Sean said as he grabbed my hand turning me around.

"Oh you like it. Its my girly outfit." I smile sarcastically as I do a spin. Sean grumbled before I felt him putting his hoodie on me. "Your sticking with me." Sean said tugging me along to our first class. "As if." I mumble.
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That day was the rocky start of our already rocky relationship. Thinking back on it, I felt like that was the first day that Sean had seen me since Paola. Maybe I was oblivious to Sean actually wanting me back then.

"What are you thinking about so hard you haven't slept?" I hear from Sean as he sat up his back on the wall. "Just thinking about that whole Paola situation and when I wore my girly outfit." I said. "Oh that crazy woman. I still get a boner thinking about that outfit though." Sean smirked at me. "Shut up." I grumbled.

"You're still as sexy as you were back then." Sean whispered as I sat up beside him. "I know." I say sassily and that made Sean chuckle.

"Effie I just want to tell tou how sorry I truly am. For letting my parents manipulate me into ruining our marriage. For pushinh you away all those years from high school to college. I know I made you feel bad but I guess I thought I wasn't good enough for you. You were always so calm and collected. I admired your family for actually supporting you in your choices. That's no excuse. But I am sorry for everything." Sean said softly to me. I nod as I lean forward.

"I forgive you Sean." I say kissing his forehead as he holds my hips. "I love you Tiger. Now please sleep." Sean said as I layed my head on his chest.