Playing With Fire & Ice

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Effie's pov

I felt lonely. I felt angry. I felt empty. But mostly I felt alone. Though Sean had been here since yesterday supporting me. And Jazzy was suppose to come over to discuss plans for dad.

So here I was sitting at the kitchen table staring into a cup of black coffee. Sean was still on the couch sleep and I didn't want to wake him. I felt sad when mom died and I finallu got to the point I can talk about her comfortably remembering the memories we made.

But no both her and dad are gone. I lost both my parents but I know I have tp be strong. But I'm tired of being strong. I want to cry. I want to be able to grieve properly. I want Sean to hold me tightly.

Sighing I take a sip of the coffee but put it back down. I wasn't in the mood to eat. I missed dad. But I was scared to go into his room. It would make it real. That he was really gone. That I was really alone in this apartment.

Feeling a kiss on my head I look up seeing Sean who was dressed in a pair of balling shorts and a t-shirt. Slowly he brought his thumb to my eyes wiping tears that I didn't realize were falling.

"C'mere lets go lay down." Sean whisper as he picked me up bridal style. I didn't speak as he walked to the couch. "My room is the second door onthe right." I mumble and he must of heard me as he walked to my room. Opening the door, he layed me on the bed. "I'll be out on the couch." He said but I grabbed the end of his shirt.

Sean gave me a soft smile before he layed beside me taking me in his arms. My back to his chest, his arms holding snugly onto waist. "You don't have to always be strong Effie." Sean whispered and my dam broke.

It started off as I slight sniffle but with on rub of my arm it turned to horrid sobbing. The tears came even harder when I remembered when I had got into arguments with dad.
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I had to be at least 15 at the time. I was in school. "Did you hear about Ashley's party on Saturday?" I heard as I was at my locker. "Of course I did everyone's going to be there." The other girl said. "There will be upperclassmen guys, alcohol, and games." They cheered.

They continued talking about this party and I ignores it as I tried to walk away but Sean stopped me. "Hey Tiger. You going to Ashley's party." He said. "Why is everyone talking about that? Is it that important?" I grumble. "Oh c'mon. It'll be fun. It's at 10 tonight ask pops." Sean smiled before he walked away.

The final bell rung and I waited outside for dad to pick me up. When he arrived, I got in the passenger side of the car. "So how was your day*ii*8p+  l sweetie?" He asked. "It was alright. I made a 98% on my math test today. Everyone was talking about this party that Ashley is having at her house tomorrow? I was wondering if I could go? Sean will be there." I explain to him. "Yes as long as you don't drink and Sean watches you okay?" Dad says. "Promise." I smile at him.

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ean and I were at the party and almost everywhere there was drunk teenagers. Music was playing loudly almost vibrating the house that was filled with moving bodies.

"Lets go dance Tiger!" Sean yelled over the music as he grabbed my hand pulling me to the dance floor. I look around nervously before realizing that no one would probably remember. Sighing I listen to the song feeling the beat as I move my hips along with it.

I let my mind go as I dance along with the music humming along with the lyrics. Feeling hands circle my waist I turn around seeing Henry, a upperclassmen that was light skinned with light gree eyes and curly hair.

Turning around I push him away. "I'm here with a friend." I say to him. "I'm sure they won't mind." He whispered in my ear as he tightened his hold around my waist. "No. I don't care. I don't want you." I say as I fight against his hold. He smirked and it sent a cold shiver down my spine.

"Don't worry gorgeous you will." He smiled as he dragged me upstairs. We stopped at a room and he went inside throwing me on the bed. Henry crawled on top of my and my heartbeat picked up.

He pulled something out of his pocket that looked like a white pill and I clamped my mouth shut. Henry saw this causing him to grow frustrated as he slapped me across the cheek but I refused to open my mouth. He kept slapping me unyil the pain got to be too mich and I cried out and he put the pill in my mouth and it instantly dissolved.

I soon felt almost paralysed. I couldn't move or even lift a finger. I felt tired but I did my best to keep my eyes open. But I couldn't do it. I saw Henry starting to undo his belt but before he could come near me the door was kicked in by a policeman.

Henry started to run but was soon in handcuffs and I closed my eyes knowing I was safe with police.

Waking up I hear my dad yelling as well as mama. "Get out of here Wylder your boy didn't protect my baby girl. She was almost raped!" Dad yelled. "Maybe she should of dressed less like a modern day whore. None of this would of happened!" I hear Sean's dad yell and I heard a loud slap. "M-mom." I whisper out and the fighting siezes as I slowly open my eyes looking at mom who had tear streaks down her cheeks.

"Wylder I want you and your family gone. Tell your boy that he not to be around my Effie until I decide so." Dad says seriously and my eyes widen. "It's not his fault." I say sitting up as Sean parents leave.

"It is his fault he was suppose to be watching you. I trusted him with you tonight and he failed." Dad said and I felt anger bubble up in me but I just glared at my fist.
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It was probably a week before I spoke to dad again. I know he was doung what he thought was right. But Sean had been my only friend, my only outlet. Then he wasn't

It was hard not speaking to Sean. But now it was even harder not being able to talk to dad.