MEMORIES

THEY WANT TO FILM MY PAINS

Now they want to make a film

about me and the pains of yesterdays,

But if only they could feel

what it is I feel

they would all be so I'll,

My emptiness has left a lifetime marks

all over my heart

Oh, the cuts are very deep

I feel most of the time I couldn't breathe

but now they want to film me

make stories about my pains

my life of a beaten-down past

can they see my fears

my tears of blood rolling down my face?

My heart bleeds the pains of Yesterdays

that keeps eating away at my soul

I had to take a deep breath

and I gave them my best of what it is I hold

deep down in my mind

that keeps me locked in that time

when they ask me

if they could film me and all my pains

I just moved my head

then I said yes

That is when I see the eyes of all times

Dark Angel looking deeper into mine

I crawled into my cold empty bed

praying one day this will all end

I pulled the cold sheets over my heard

like I was already dead.

-Judy Emery © 1980 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery