ꜱᴄᴀʀꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ (ᴘʀɪɴxɪᴇᴛʏ)

Chapter 1 The Begining

Tw: angst, fighting, cursing, cutting, depression basically, You've been warned!

_Virgil's POV_

I sat up in my bed quickly as reflections of the nightmare run through my head like a record player. I started to sob quietly because the voices wouldn't leave me alone. I don't go out of my room much anymore since Roman and I fight almost every time I go out there. Patton and Logan talked to him about it on multiple occasions but he thinks that I wasn't even supposed to exist when I'm only trying to do my job. The voices grew louder and louder causing me to whimper and curl into a ball.

Worthless

"I-I know..."

Disgrace

"I know..."

You're better off dead

"I know..."

Just grab the blade you know you deserve it~

"O-ok..."

I got up shakily from my bed and went to the mirror. I went to the drawer and got the box and found the blade. It had old blood on it I didn't bother to clean it anymore. I looked at it and rolled up my sleeve and wanted to just do my left arm. The thoughts were coming back making me shake more. I was about to do it before I heard a knock on my door I was so close to hitting a vein if I went too deep but instead I dropped the blade almost instantly.

"Kiddo? Are you awake?" I heard Patton sounding worried.

"Yeah, I'm fine! I just dropped something. Did you need anything?" I said while putting it on its box and put it back.

"Umm yeah I just wanted to say that breakfast is ready, come down once you're ready!"

"Ok meet you down there then," I said while trying to sound ok.

I heard footsteps leave the area and I felt a huge wave of relief wash over me. I got dressed in my usual outfit just the jeans and hoodie really. I went to my bathroom to 'freshen up. I grabbed some foundation to hide my tear-stained face and some eyeshadow to put under my eyes to cover up how tired I really was. Once I was done I did my hair and looked at myself in the mirror.

You look really ugly you know why don't you just not show up today.

I ignored the voice and looked at my arms and question myself. It felt like forever before I realized the breakfast thing and shook my head and try to stay focus. I soon realized how thin I was turning I wasn't really that hungry so I just decided to eat a little bit and leave before Roman tries to start something again. I opened my door and walked slowly to the kitchen wondering if the other two actually cared or just tolerated me. My head was pounding but I manage to go along like nothing. I saw everyone but Roman. Logan was reading a book at the kitchen table while Patton was cooking something.

"Hey, so glad you came down here I was starting to get worried there."

"Dad I'm fine really," I said in reassurance.

"Salutations Virgil," Logan said not even looking up from his book.

"Hey Lo," I said with a salute.

I sat down at the table fidgeting with my hands a bit to keep me busy. It wasn't long before Roman came in dramatically he gave me a glare and greeted the others as they did the same. He sat on the other side of the table and I looked away from him not trying to start anything like he says I do. He's always been like this ever since I showed up I don't really know why it gets annoying but he leaves me so vulnerable. Patt served breakfast and I managed to eat some before I started to walk to my room. On the way there I tripped over something I realized it was Roman's foot.

"Watch where you're going hot topic." He said with sarcasm in his voice.

"At least I don't pretend to be a prince and thanks for calling me hot."

"Hey, at least I don't ruin Thomas's life unlike you!"

"It's my job I don't have a choice in that!" I yelled back.

"Well, you know what you should do?"

"What!" I said spitting anger.

"You deserve to fade it would be better off without you! You anxiety written freak!" He said probably not even realizing what he just said.

He started to corner me and raised his hand probably to hit me. I flinched and backed away shakily. I heard gasps from the other room as I bit my lip causing it to bleed when I was about to cry.

"F-fine..." I said giving in for the first time.

He snapped out from his anger and looked at me with a worried look. I started to walk away before I felt a gentle hand grab my wrist. I saw that it was Roman's I started to panic thinking he was going to hurt me. He only hurts me but it's rarely physical so I didn't know if he was going to go by his threats this time he knew that I was weaker than him and took that as an advantage.

"Virgil I'm-" I knew what he was going to say.

"NO!" I said harshly pulling my wrist away from him making him jump back.

"Don't touch me! Can't you see that in I'm getting sick and tired of this! If you want me gone so badly fine I'll do it then!" I said with clenched fists.

After my outburst, I ran to my room as fast as I could hear the others trying to stop me but it was too late. I slammed the door and locked it. I heard the other two yelling at Roman but at this point, I couldn't care I was already broken as it is. I stumbled into the furthest corner of the room and let it all out. It was too much at once. I started hyperventilating at this point. I was shaking violently and curled up into a ball as the voices came back to haunt me. I was a broken sobbing mess.

Just fade already save them the effort and do it yourself.

"No..."

He doesn't regret anything he said to you he doesn't care no one does!

"S-stop..."

Can't you see how pathetic you are? No wonder how you're so vulnerable.

"S-stop damn it..." I said trying to fight back knowing that I have no chance against it.

You only make Thomas suffer you deserve it.

"P-please...leave me alone it hurts..." I said choking back more tears.

That's all I remember saying before I blacked out hoping that this would all fade into nothing...