ꜱᴄᴀʀꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ (ᴘʀɪɴxɪᴇᴛʏ)

Chapter 5 Silent Suffering

I made my way to the living room to find Jan and Remus in there both with worried looks on their faces. Jan proceeded to gesture me to sit down on the couch so I did as told.

"Hey, Virgil." He began.

"Yes?"

"I just wanted to know but you have to if you want to ok?"

"Alright."

"Are you really ok Virgil?"

"...I'm fine."

"Alright is Orange ok after all of that?"

"Well he might be a little ticked off about the window thing but either than that I have no clue on that ball of fire."

"Yeah, he and Remus over here can be a handful."

"HEY!" He barked.

"Sorry squid he's telling the truth here," I said with a small laugh.

I was secretly hoping to change the subject before they could find out the truth and it worked.

"I-is there anything else?" I said with a stutter.

"No you should be heading home Virge they would be coming back if you delay those-"

"Alright, Remussss! That's enough I'll see you again Virge." Jan hissed.

"Yeah I'll see you guys later," I said with a wave.

I left the house and took one last glance at it. I sighed shakily knowing I'll have to make up an excuse for this time around. I became slower at my pace because out of true fear that they would try to get the truth out of me. I put my earbuds in and listened to some music to try to calm me down. I made it to the house and I walked over to the door and twisted the doorknob then proceeded to head to my room. I stopped in my tracks as I saw everyone in the living room. Roman looked like he was in the middle of pacing back and forth in the room, Patton looked panicked, All of this happening while Logan was trying to calm Patton down by rubbing circles in his back and saying sweet nothings to him. Everyone stopped and looked at me.

"Virgil!" They said in worry.

My eyes widened in the sudden worry for me.

"W-was I n-not wanted? I c-can leave-" I said while starting to back my way upstairs.

"Why wouldn't we want you! Where were you?!?" Roman said with sudden courage.

"... nowhere..." I mumbled.

"Son what did you say?"

"I was Nowhere! Ok?!?" I snapped.

It all feel silent as I saw shocked and confused faces fill the room.

"Don't talk to Patton like that he just asked-" Roman began.

I started trembling as he came closer to me. My breathing became heavy as black dots started to fill my vision. The voices came back to haunt me.

They don't care...

You should've stayed there and never came back...

He was right you should've faded while you had the chance...

Burden...

Worthless...

My arm started to itch like crazy.

"I-I'm sorry..." I started to say nonstop.

"Wait what do you- Virgil! Come back!!!" Princey shouted.

I couldn't take it anymore I ran off to my room while I heard him run after me. I heard Patton and Logan yell for him to come back. I slammed my door shut and made my way to the mirror. I grabbed the box and bandages and a spare set of clothes. I ran to the bathroom and made sure it was locked...

_Roman's POV_

As soon as he ran off I followed behind him to see why he looked so distressed all of a sudden. I heard the other two call out of me but I ignored them this time. I fell behind him he slammed his door shut behind him. Instead of seeing if the door was unlocked, I waited because I heard things being moved around. I heard another door being shut before I opened the door carefully. I've noticed right away that the door was strangely unlocked for the first time. I looked around the room a bit. I went over to a mirror and looked into it. I looked at the desk part of it and saw...blood on it?

'Why is there blood on this? No, he couldn't.' I thought.

I looked in the open drawer and just found makeup, bandages, and loads of foundation on one side. I looked over at the walls to find the all too familiar Disney and MCR posters in the room. I heard a shower running on the other side of the room. I decided to get out of there and question him later about it. Hopefully, he wouldn't be mad about it...

_Virgil's POV_

Tw: cutting and more deppresso

'Someone is in my room. I must've forgotten to lock it. Shit.'

I put down the small box and turned on the shower so whoever was in there would leave. I heard my door shut and I felt a wave of relief wash over me. I grabbed the box and got the blade out for another round. Dark thoughts started spilling into my head like wildfire. I did ten on each arm just to silence them. I watched as the crimson liquid starting to come out slowly from them it hurt but it felt like I deserved it. It felt like minutes until I decided to take a quick shower. I undressed and went inside the shower. At first, I didn't let my arms get even near the water but I gave in. I felt the stinging pain rush through it but at this point, I just wanted to get it over with. I turned off the water and stepped out, I reached the towel and wrapped it around my waist. I grabbed the bandages and wrapped both arms up. After that, I got changed into the clothes that I layed out. I put the box in the top cabinet and shut the small door to it. I left the room and crashed onto my bed I got my phone off of the charger and started scrolling through Tumblr once again to see what was new...