i hate you , i love you

4.

after working out all the details with hotch , you say your goodbyes and get in the car. you take a moment to collect yourself then decide to text the girls and invite them to brunch tomorrow, you all had a day off and you needed to spill what just happened with them.
y/n: hey ladies , brunch tomorrow? my treat? let's say , 11? see you there!
penny: you had me at my treat
em: looking forward to it!
jj: see you then.

now that that's settled , you can drive home. you put on some music to ease your nerves and make it back home. you decided to take a hot bath and just go to sleep but then you get a text from you guessed it; spencer reid.

s: hey doll, i fixed my problem no thanks to you.

y/n: doll? spencer watch it. and hope you had fun.

s: yes doll , or was angel starting to stick?? it would have been more fun with you here but i guess i can't complain.

y/n: let's just stick to y/n. goodnight spencer.

s: night angel.

you scoff and get in the bathtub. the water is steaming just the way you like it. you could stay in forever but you wash your body and hop out. opting for a oversized top and underwear for pajamas , you flop into bed and let sleep overtake you.
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the next morning comes rather quickly, your alarm going off at 9:30. you hop out of bed and start with your outfit , deciding on a red blouse and some jeans , with some vans. once you're dressed , you put on some mascara and match it with a red lip and you're ready. you grab your phone and keys and text the girls that you're on the way.

you're the first to arrive so you find a nice booth and order a water. penny gets there not too long after you then emily and jj walk in together. you all exchange your hellos and order your food then you remember why you invited them here in the first place.

"okay so you guys know how me and spencer had to go undercover last night?" they all nod and you continue "well the unsub made us make out to prove we were into each other and make out. so spencer pulls me on top of him and a while into the kiss i feel something hard pressing up against me." jj looks shocked , em looks proud and garcia looks like she might cry.

"not to mention he was calling me angel the whole time." "well did you like it?" jj asks curiously. "i mean all and all it wasn't a bad kiss but i cant feel that way about spencer , you know what he did to me." "well y/n you can't hold the grudge forever and i think this is a signal to forgive him.

you knew deep down emily was right , that you couldn't stay mad at spencer forever. "i guess you're right , ugh what would i do without you guys?" "not have enough pictures of kittens!" garcia said. you all laugh and finish your meals making small talk about your weeks. jj talking about henry and will , garcia talking about her and kevin's latest date and emily ranting about sergio. you truthfully didn't know what you would do without them.

the bill came around and you payed for everyone and left. you got in the car and before you realized where you were going you were there. spencer's apartment complex.

your body seemed to move on it's own as you walked to his apartment and knocked on the door. he answer with a look of confusion on his face."hey ange-" you cut him off with the feeling on your lips on his

he didn't move for a second , before giving into the kiss. the way your tongues dances in eachothers mouths were magical. then he pulled away and said "i knew you'd come around" you just smiled at him and turned to walk away but he grabbed you in for another kiss. you laughed into the kiss then pulled away.

"spencer , i'm sorry for holding this grudge against you for so long. i really did miss you and our friendship before everything happened." he just smiled and pulled you into his apartment

he walked over to the kitchen you wonder what he was doing but you were pulled out of your thought by his voice "tea?" you just nodded still shell shocked about what just happened.

spencer came over with 2 mugs and sat one down in front of you. "i suppose we should talk about what just happened, well what's been happening." only one thought was on your mind though. how did spencer know so much about bdsm? does he really do that stuff? you couldn't bring yourself to ask but he could tell something was on your mind

"what's wrong y/n?" he asked snapping you out of your trance. "nothing reid, let's talk" so you talked about everything , you halfway listened only concerned about how he knew that much about bdsm. you knew he was a genius but you don't learn all that from reading.

"spence?" you asked not even realizing you dropped the r. his eyes met yours and you knew you had his attention. "how did you know all that stuff about bdsm and what to say?" "well y/n you don't know everything about me." he said with a chuckle. your jaw dropped. spencer reid actually does bdsm? like for fun?

"so you like actually do bsdm?" you asked turing to face him. "yes y/n , why do you ask?" the truth is , you were interested in it but you would never let him know that. "unless you're trying to make fun of me i have to assume that you're interested in being my sub, correct?" you stayed silent , but your silence gave him the answer he needed.

"i should go." you said abruptly. he looked at you with amusement as you gathered your stuff and walked out of his apartment wishing you'd never gone in. "i'll text you angel" was the last thing you'd heard before you slammed his door and ran to your car.

HIIIIIII!! this chapter was a little longer. did you guys like it? also i don't have a set releasing schedule i just kinda write whenever i feel inspired and then release when i'm done , hope you enjoy and don't forget to comment! xoxo!