i hate you , i love you

27.

spencer birthday has come and gone, you took him to vegas to see his mom, which also meant you met his mom. you also had lots of birthday sex, lots of it.
now you were sitting home, watching movies until spencer got home from the case.

you spent most of the case "visiting" garcia, when you were really assisting, but strauss didn't need to know that. it was ultimately you who solved the case, strauss didn't need to know that either. all she knew is that you apparently really missed garcia, which technically wasn't a lie.

you decided to call emily, spence should be home by now. it rings for a while before you hear her voice. "hey y/n, what's up?" "hey em, are you back from
the case yet?" you ask. "yeah we got back yesterday, why?" she said and you felt your heart drop. "did spence stay overnight??" you ask, panicking slightly.

"no, he left before all of us. is he not home?" she asks, voice wavering slightly. "no he's not home." you say, hopping off the couch and grabbing your keys, ready to head to the bau. "woah woah woah what are you doing?" she asks, hearing the commotion on the other line. "i'm going to the bau, call the team and meet me there. something isn't right." you say, hanging up on her and running to your car.

you can't keep track of how many red lights you've ran, but you made a 20 minute drive into a 10 minute drive. when you pulled up you saw that the entire team beat you there, most of them living closer than you.

they see you hop out the car and run up to you. garcia pulls you in for a big hug, murmuring that everything will be okay, but you couldn't believe that until spencer was in your arms again.

"okay, tell us everything that happened." hotch says unlocking the doors to the bau. "well apparently spencer left here before all of you," you say, turning and confirming with emily, her giving you a little nod.

"and i thought he would be here by the time i woke up, but he wasn't." you say taking a deep breath. "did you call his phone, make sure he wasn't just somewhere else?" derek says and you wish in that moment you could crawl up into a bowl and die. you'd been in the fbi for almost 8 years and forgot to do the obvious, call his phone.

you shake your head no and derek whips out his phone and calls spencer, you all wait by the phone until someone answers. you let out a sigh of relief. "oh my god spencer you scared the hell out of me!" you say. but he doesn't respond, instead you hear the oddly familiar voice of another, and you knew who it was by the hatred laced in her voice. it was seaver.

"zugzwang." she said, and hung up. garcia let out some strangled cry and you swore in that minute you wanted to jump off the top of the bau building. you all ran to garcia's office, hotch yelling at her to trace the call.

"was the call long enough to trace?" jj asks, rubbing your back. "we would need a trap and trace to get the location." she says while her voice cracks.

"okay but why the hell would seaver want to take reid? he was her damn favorite on the team!" emily says in confusion. you think back to when you saw her walking home from the gym and she told you to "watch your back agent" you thought it was just a harmless threat.

"i saw her a couple weeks back after she got me fired, when i was leaving the gym. she told me to "watch my back." but i never thought she would kidnap my fucking boyfriend!" you say, throwing your shoulders up in frustration.

"all we can do is call strauss, and profile ashley like we would any other unsub. clearly she did this to get back at y/n, but why?" hotch says. "wasn't getting her fired from her damn job enough?" jj says, clearly pissed off. you knew the whole situation infuriated her and you knew spencer was the closest thing she had to a brother.

"OH MY GOD!" you hear garcia shriek causing you all too look at what caused the commotion. you wished in that moment that you were blind. all of her monitors were now displaying a live feed of spencer. he was in some room, a warehouse maybe. he was also badly beaten.

"garcia we need a trap and trace now, she's gonna try and call morgan's phone again." hotch says and she nods, wiping the tears from her eyes and using the one monitor that spencer wasn't on.

like clockwork, she calls morgan's phone and garcia nods, confirming its set up. derek answers the phone and waits for her to talk. "didn't you like my little surprise?" she asks and he scoffs. "ashley what the hell is the point of all this?" he asks, pinching the bridge of his nose. "i don't wanna talk to you derek, put y/n on the phone." she asks condescendingly. he looks at you, asking with his eyes if you're up to it. you nod, and take the phone.

"ashley." you say shortly. "oh if it isn't the woman of the hour!" she says laughing, like this was some kind of joke. "so it wasn't enough for you to get me fired from my job, you had to take spencer too?" you ask and she laughs, the bitch actually laughs. "you took my spot on the team and you took spencer from me."

"you took jj's spot on the team!" you say in frustration." and spencer was never yours for me to take." you add. "well he's mine now, and if you don't play my little game he'll be joining his little maeve in her little grave." she says jokingly.

you look at garcia, and she's motioning for you to keep talking. "what's your game ashley?" you say and she makes a 'tsk tsk tsk' noise. "i was a profiler, i know you have a trap and trace set up but i won't make it that easy for you, but feel free to watch me torture your boyfriend, toodles!" she says before hanging up.

"i can tell you the towers his cell bounced off of, but she didn't talk long enough for me to get an exact location." she says and you groan. "she's not gonna make it easy for us to catch her, she knows exactly what we would do." hotch says and you know he's right. seaver was a member of this team long enough to know how they would track an unsub.

"if she kills my boyfriend i'm gonna be the next fbi agent to go rogue." you say, standing up and walking  out the room

the way i'm almost at 9k reads is absolutely insane!! thank you all so so much!! (also pls don't hate me but i had to make the story interesting somehow.) happy holidays!!! xoxo!