This is ALL SANDRAS FAULT SHE DID IT I AM *INNOCENT*!!!!
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The silent figure walked and stood in front of a simple gravestone. It was an unusually bright and sunny November day, the chill of the air mild. But none of these things penetrated the dark cloak of pain and sadness covering the person looking down at the gravestone.
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Tears welled inSeokjin's eyes as he faced the stone carved with the name 'Mathan Foley' and dates of birth and death on it.
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"I'm not okay, Mathan-ah...."
The tears came just as hard and fast now as they had the day he had been forced to leave Mathan in this cold hard earth.
"Five years, Mathan-ah... Five years since I got on that plane not realizing that it would be the last time I saw you, touched you, held you and kissed you. I hated you for so long after that, for not giving me the time to say good-bye...for leaving me behind in this world. For months after your funeral I buried myself in whatever alcohol or drug I could get ahold of, praying that the next drink or pill would be the one to stop this pain and reunite me with you. The others always pulled me back and oh, God Mathan-ah... How I despised them for it. No matter how much I begged and pleaded with them they refused to let me embrace death."
Falling to his knees by the grave Jin beat tight fists against the cold unforgiving earth and screamed, "YOU PROMISED ME FOREVER, MATHAN-AH! WE WALKED THROUGH THE FIRES OF HELL AND LIVED, SO WHY AREN'T YOU HERE WITH ME...YOU BASTARD!!!"
His voice raw from screaming in the cold November air, Jin failed to notice the sudden warm breeze that caressed his hair until he heard the softly spoken words.
"I never left your side, angel...every step you have taken these past five years I have been right there with you. I always made sure one of the others found you before you did something stupid."
Jin jerked up to see Mathan standing there before him as clear and as solid as he had been that last day in the airport. All he could do was stare, his mouth opening and closing as he tried to find any words to speak.
The hand that took his was warm, solid and real, and Jin cried out as he was pulled into arms he never thought he would feel again. All he could do was tightly clutch the shirt under his fingertips and weep. If this was some drug or alcohol induced delusion, and his mind had finally slipped away from sanity, then Jin prayed that it would never end.
The laughter that ruffled his hair was so very real and Jin wanted to wrap himself in it like a warm blanket.
"You are not drunk, or high or losing your mind, Kim Seokjin."
Jin felt himself pushed back until he could gaze up into clear smiling blue eyes.
"I am so sorry for leaving you behind, my precious love. And I am sorry that you had to wait this long. Sometimes the prayers of the living and the dead take a little longer to reach the right ears. But I am here now and never will we part...."
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I'd like
To say
I'm ok
But I'm not
I try
But I fall
Close my mind
Turn it off
I can't be sober
I cannot sleep
You've got your peace now
What about me?
Thought we had the time, had our lives
Now you'll never get older, older
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
One last word
One last moment
To ask you why
You left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me
We had plans
We had visions
Now I can't see ahead
We were one
We were golden
Forever you said
I can't be sober
I cannot sleep
You've got your peace now
What about me?
Thought we had the time, had our lives
Now you'll never get older, older
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
One last word
One last moment
To ask you why
You left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me
~"You Said You'd Grow Old With Me" - Michael Schulte
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The reporter sitting at the news desk could not control the tears streaming down her face as she faced the camera and spoke.
"Today this news desk is saddened to report the passing of Bangtan Sonyeondan member, Kim Seokjin. He was discovered at the graveside of his beloved fiancé, Mathan Foley, by his fellow members. Preliminary reports state that Mr. Kim passed away from a sudden heart attack while visiting the grave on the anniversary of Mr. Foley's death. The members of BTS and Kim Seokjin's family have released a brief statement asking for privacy during this time and confirm that funeral arrangements are ongoing."
