Our Yesterdays and Tomorrows

Say Goodbye

Summary:

DEDICATION: This bit is inspired by a very short RPG that I conducted with my super bestie soulmate who just totally gets me, twitter user @intj_klmnop. She made me cry writing this and then told me I could post it so...here we are.

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Notes:

DISCLAIMER: The writers in NO WAY condone, encourage, or wish to romanticize suicide. It isn't romantic, or edgy, or cool. It is sad, and hopeless, and so very permanent. It is an affliction I wish absolutely never existed, and a route I wish people never thought they had to take. As a mother, emergency services worker, and friend, please know that anyone reading this is never alone. I will always be here for any one of you. Please don't ever feel ashamed to reach out for help. That is the most selfless, bravest thing you could ever do, and I will applaud you for it. Unfortunately I know all too well that situations exactly like the one depicted here happen far more often than we hear. I tried to give our characters a moment of clarity, even if it was too late, and I hope that the point I tried to drive home here was clear. Don't ever wait for tomorrow, because one day there isn't going to be one. If you have an apology to make, make it then and there. If the hairs on the back of your neck stand up and tell you something is wrong, listen. Something most likely is. It has been EVERY SINGLE TIME I HAVE EVER HAD THAT FEELING.

What you find here-in is a work of fiction that in no way romanticizes suicide or suicidal thoughts and anyone that feels that it could be triggering or harmful for themselves to read something like this should not read it to protect themselves. (I can't ever say this stuff enough. It is so very important!) Otherwise, grab some tissues and some chocolate and don't come after me with pitchforks. I'm sorry.

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***TRIGGERS!!!!*** Direct mentions of successful suicide x2. The entire story is about TaeKook's journey into eternal sleep. DO!!! NOT!!! READ!!! If this will harm you. You are too precious for all that, okay? And I love you too hard to risk any of that. So just...take a couple blankets and blanket burrito until you are okay again and read something super fluffy, and squishy, and light. Please.

If you have thoughts of suicide or self-harm, know that there is help. I have been down that dark road myself. My inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to and because of a million different reasons I keep odd hours. or Twitter handle @the_ladygrey. I will listen. I promise.

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Close your eyes with me, There are no words to speak. I know your tired mind is worn down. So let's not waste our lips, On words we think we've missed. Only thing for sure, Is you're here now.

"It's as easy as falling asleep, Kookie-ah," Taehyung whispered, the tears streaming down his cheeks painted silver in the haunting light of the moon. "Hyungie has done it once before, remember?"

"Don't let me go," Jungkook answered, his voice trembling just the slightest.

Taehyung tightened his grip, pressing a gentle kiss to his temple.

"Never." 

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So close your eyes with me, And we'll just fall asleep, And let the morning light be for tomorrow. Cause when I'm holding you tight, Know that everything's fine, And we won't waste anytime on tomorrow.

"Hyung," Jungkook asked, sounding hesitant as he warred with himself. "We won't...our brothers...they won't be with us next time, will they?"

Taehyung thought about their brothers just down the hallway, his mind moving a bit slower than before. "We...we'll have to wait and see, Kookie. But...we can do anything we want. We can go anywhere. Be anything and that...that'll be okay. And you will always have me. And I'll have you."