The Train Ride Home ~ BKDK soulmate au

Chapter 4

Izuku woke up, his eyes stinging slightly. He stared at the ceiling, not wanting to get up or do anything. He had no motivation to do anything. His body felt like lead and his head was pounding. He picked up his phone wincing at the bright screen and pulled out his notes. He composed a message which he sent to Aizawa and his university saying he wouldn't be able to work and attend school for personal reasons. Izuku sighed and set the phone down and continued to stare at the roof.

He ignored the messages that all of his concerned friends sent and he was fairly certain that one of his friends was going to show up one of these days. It was only his first day staying home but he felt at peace. No person to bother him. No responsibilities to attend to. Just him and his thoughts. The more he thought, though, the more heartbroken he got. Of course, he was upset at the situation with his now ex-girlfriend but more so with the blond which he thought depicted him perfectly.

Izuku was too sensitive. That's it. He knew it. He was too weak. He made everyone worry about him and he doesn't deserve anyone. He blamed himself for his parents' death and ever since then everything around him began crumbling. The blond crushed any hope of him being truly ok and happy again. His heart had just gone through too much and he wasn't sure if he could get through it. Hell, was he even too weak to get over what a stranger said to him? Why was he letting Bakugo control his emotions so much? Shouldn't he be worried that Uraraka broke up with him? Why was his mind on the blond?

Izuku stared at the roof lost in his own thoughts for hours. He wasn't hungry. He didn't feel the need to brush his hair, his teeth or even take care of himself for anything. He only got out of bed once and that was to go to the bathroom and grab a bottle of chilled water from his kitchen. He returned to his bed and sat up turning on his laptop and turning on some music and continued to sit there in silence his music filling the room at a low volume. He took slow sips of the water, his skin was pale and his under eyes were huge.

Izuku had lost all motivation. Motivation to care. For himself and for others.

He was truly done with everything.

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Katsuki Bakugo was losing sleep as he thought of the green-eyed boy. He twisted in his bed again. He didn't know why he was feeling this bad. Normally, he wouldn't care. He yelled at people at least twice a day and it never phased him. Why was this one guy making him worry so much? He rubbed his hands over his face and decided to get up from bed early, around 5 am because he just couldn't sleep. He made his way to the gym, sleepy but guilty. He continued his daily routine and was the first person on the carriage. He looked at the door hoping that the green-haired boy would walk in but much to his disappointment, he didn't. 

Katsuki was the one to open up the store and he attempted to get some work done in the office outback. He was distracting himself as much as he could, so he would stop feeling guilty, but the feeling was still brewing in his stomach. He managed to get a few things down before he made his way to the kitchen and made himself a breakfast burger. He went back to the office after he ate, watching some Netflix show, laughing when characters died, but his mind kept drawing him back to his situation on hand. 

Kirishima walked in and was surprised to see his best friend there as he was usually the last one in the office. "Bakubro", Kirishima said surprised going in to shake his hand with that 'bro-hug'. Katsuki returned it un-enthusiastically and paused his show. He stared at the floor, connecting is hands. He dropped his head and his eyes began tearing up. 

"You ok", Kirishima asked Bakugo concerned. Usually, Bakugo would have made a comment about how stupid he looked that day. "When your mean to someone", Bakugo said slowly trying to voice his feelings, something different, "and you can't stop thinking about it, and your stomach hurts when you think about it...". He trailed off not knowing what to say. "What is that feeling", Katsuki said quietly.