𝕀'𝕝𝕝 𝕎𝕒𝕚𝕥 // ~switz~

6

He hurries out of the club. Not looking for any of his friends,least of all Cameron. Vomiting had made the spinning stop but he still needed air; he couldn't breathe. He pushes the door open quickly, he was thankful, the street was relatively quiet for a Friday night. Eric practically jogs down the street to the left side of the building in the alley,where he can be alone. He leans against the wall now hyperventilating, he puts a hand to his chest and closes his eyes. "Eric,what's going on? Are you alright?" Tobi's voice scares him to the point of tears. He looks at her not knowing what to say, now crying. He searches internally for some sort of excuse or reasonable response, but turns up nothing.  "I just can't get him out of my head Tobi." He almost shouts through tears, his voice hitching slightly, "I'm trying to sort things with Bee.. but i dont even care anymore.. I just want him.." He finshes whispering, trying to stop crying,"I just really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like im going fucking crazy." He combs his hair with his right hand, holding a few strands between his fingers. She smiles pitifully at him,  "Who're you talking about,who's him?" Swagger sighs, sitting down, he considers lying but opens up anyway,  taking Cams advice of talking to someone. "I... I have feelings for Cameron... I don't know why or how but the harder I try to ignore them.. the stronger they get..." Tobi sits next to Eric taking his hand in hers. "And what about Bee, what have you done to her?" Swag runs a hand through his hair, blowing out hard, his cheeks puffing out, "I smoked at her apartment after she asked me to stop and now she won't talk to me,like always when I do something wrong. I thought we were just having fun.. but now she wants me to stop smoking and she wants to start looking for a house and a german shephard." Eric looks at his lap,"and she completely deserves that, but.. I can't be that for her." Tobi just stares at him for a second, "Eric, do you want me to talk to Cameron for you?" Eric freezes in shock, just the thought causing knots to form in his stomach. "No Tobi, please, he can't find out..ever." Tobi frowns slightly. "Pinky swear?" Eric says childishly sticking out his smallest finger. Tobi hesitates, making Eric nervous, but she closed the gap intertwining their pinkies before sighing heavily. "Well what's the plan then, Mr.Souls?" Eric lets his hands flop to either side of him on the ground, "Live completely unsatisfied in my relationships forever, because I'm too afraid to speak up for what I want." Tobi picks his hand up, holding it again, "if you and Cameron are meant to be.. it'll just work. I promise."

The ride home was loud,everyone pumped from a night out. Swagger sat next to Mas, who was turned around in his seat, his elbows resting on each side of the headrest, singing a song with Fitz and McCreamy at the top of their lungs. While Matt and Tobi chatted next to Cameron in the back. Swagger sat sulking silently,earbuds in playing something loud enough to almost drown out Cameron's voice. He closes his eyes focusing on the lyrics when something small hits him in the back of his head,something cold,"what the fuck?" He asks turning around and pulling out one earbud, holding it at his chest,Cameron shrugs laughing,"Fuck off Cameron." Eric spits. "Never.. Eric" Cameron slurred, repositioning the ice cube in his mouth. Eric just rolls his eyes and turns back around shaking his head. Cameron was drunk,in fact they all were,but Cameron was by far the most intoxicated.

They pulled up to the house,everyone exhausted by now except for Mason, who was buck naked as soon as he stepped out of the van,running for the pool at 1:30 Am. Jay hesitantly followed, promising to keep an eye on him. Eric walked through the door behind Cameron, who wouldn't look at him. He stops in front of the hallway, watching the taller trudge slowly up the stairs, worrying slightly that he may not make it up them, before sighing and walking down the hall to his own room. Shutting the door behind him, he almost cries yet again, taking in his dim, quiet room. Eric loved being alone, but he despised being lonely. Sniffling slightly, he got dressed into long loose pajama pants and a tee shirt and got into bed. He stared at the wall for what felt like an eternity. He had heard Mason run in, McCreamy following behind saying to 'be careful' and 'get to bed,' before he heard Mason's door shut. He was contemplating getting up for a toke when, at his own door, he heard a knock, startling him upright. "Its me...oh.. I mean its Cam" he heard quiet and muffled from the door. Eric's stomach flipped, he may have vomited he thought, had he had any food left in him. Trying to steady his breathing, he throws back his covers and hurries over to the door. Briefly he hesitates, his hand hovering in front of the door knob before grabbing it quickly and pulling it open with a quiet squeak. He's met with a very messy Fitz, his hair tousled, shirt pulled and twisted around his frame, and his cheeks red from the alcohol he'd consumed. He towers over Eric, swaying slightly, the smell of alcohol wafting from him, "I couldn't sleep.. I just wanted to make sure *hiccup* ...you weren't really mad at me." Eric looks up at Cam, one hand still holding onto the doorknob, he stutters, "No, Cam.. I- I'm not mad at you." Cameron smiles softly, nodding, then shook his head, "I'm not mad at you either." Swagger looks down at the floor, finding himself flustered with Cam's drunken words. "...I'm sorry I couldn't hold your hand.. Matt was watching" Cameron adds causing Eric to look up at him quickly, searching for a sign that this was a joke. But Cameron just stares at him, a soft frown on his face. "Its okay" Eric says blushing, looking back at the floor. He can feel Cameron's eyes watching him but he wasn't sure of what he was supposed to say or do.
He glances briefly up at Cameron once more, "did you... did you want to?" Eric stammers timidly not daring to look back up at the taller. Cameron sighs, "yeah... I did." He replies just above a whisper, scratching the back of his neck. Eric blushes even more, heat rising in his chest and throat. "Can I make it up to you?" Cameron said and Eric looks up at him quickly, once again questioning the taller's true intentions. "Hey, if Tobi told you anything." he shakes his head, "you don't have to try t-" he falls silent, his courage fading as Cameron leans down into Eric's ear,
"I just really.. really wanted to kiss you.. actually." He whispers, his hot breath making Swagger shiver and leaving his body weak. Eric can only nod, his grip on the doorknob loosening and his hand falls to his side. Cameron pulls his face away, looking from Eric's dark eyes to his lips before taking his face in one hand and kissing him softly. Eric soaks in the kiss at first, letting Cam lead before he kisses back, his hesitation and confusion melting away. He grabs the back of Cameron's head with both hands,further messying the tallers dirty blonde strands. After a few seconds Cam pulls away, his lips lingering on Eric's. He bites Eric's bottom lip making a small cut, and licking the wound before kissing in the crook of his neck. A moan reverberates under his lips, the sensation driving Cam mad He puts his hand up Swaggers shirt grazing his first two fingers slowly across Eric's chest and then stomach, stopping just at his waistline. He circles the sensitive spot with his middle finger, gaining more and more soft gasps and moans from Swagger. He continues nibbling Eric, and starts to leave love marks and bites on his neck and chest before crashing their lips together again. Slowly, he slips his hand into Eric's pajamas, smiling against Erics lips when he feels he's already grown. He palms him through his underwear, stroking slowly. "I could just fuck you right here in the hallway." He says breathily into Eric's mouth, grabbing his hips roughly and pushing him against the door facing, before speeding up his movements, causing him to squeal quietly. But he grabs Cameron's wrist, stopping him abruptly, "Cam.. I- I really want you.. but," he whines, panting quietly. Cam hesitates, his hand still cupping Eric's member. He looks down at the shorter, but then pulls his hand out of Eric's pants hastily, his wasteband snapping loudly. He combs his hair with his fingers, and nods, "Her..." Fitz silently cursed his short friend's loyalty, a trait he normally adored. "I'm sorry.." Eric said quietly. Cameron shook his head, "Its okay Eric.." he said, his elbow resting on the door facing above Swag's head leaning over the smaller. Taking in his lust filled presence before he had to have patience again. "I can keep waiting..." he sighs deeply before walking slowly down the hall and around the corner out of Eric's sight. Eric leaned against the door facing watching the spot he'd disappeared, his breathing and heartrate calming. He licked his lips, tasting the remnants of Cam's drinks from earlier in the night and, with his tongue, traced the cut that Cam had made on his bottom lip.