𝕀'𝕝𝕝 𝕎𝕒𝕚𝕥 // ~switz~

4

Eric stood in front of the door, debating turning around and going home, or, maybe the uber wasn't far away and he could catch up. Breathing steadily and adjusting his jacket,he raises his hand to the bell. A beautiful chime can be heard throughout the house, Eric listens intently but never hears footsteps. Waiting a moment, he raises his finger to ring again when the door swings open and he's  greeted by Bee smiling,pulling him into a hug and then away again for a quick kiss. "Missed me?" She beamed. "Of course I did,I've been thinking about you since I last left your house," Eric replies kissing her again before she pulls him through her house and to the bedroom.

                                                  ...

He lay on his back,Bee under his arm on his chest,asleep. He always wondered how she could fall asleep like that. One moment awake and talking and the next absolutely unconscious. He carefully flips her over to her side of the bed and puts his boxers on,leaving the room.He finds his phone which he had thrown on the couch when taking Bee to the bedroom. He sits down on the couch,staring at the image on his phone,a cute fanart of little swagger in his helmet holding a blunt. He retweets it when Cameron's text pops up.

Kiwi

'So, are you gonna do it tonight?'
7:26 PM

Eric looks toward the bedroom where a naked Bee lay sleeping.

                                          'Idk if I should maybe I'm just
      being weird. Maybe it'll pass'
7:36 PM

Swagger sighed, feeling guilty,he truly cared for Bee. He loved the relationship they'd built for over a year now. But he felt as if it wasn't fair to her. Because when they were together,no matter how hard he tried to focus, his mind would slip away to Cameron and his hair and his lips and his hands pulling at Eric's hair and Cam's crotch pressed against Eric. Eric almost gasps at his phone buzzing in his hand, realizing he'd grown a little from his fantasies.

Kiwi

'Only you know what you're feeling,I can't tell you if you're overthinking things or not.'
7:44 PM

'I know thanks Cam,I'm gonna think about it.'
7:44 PM

'Anytime mate ttyl'
7:45 PM

'Cya'
7:45 PM

Eric sits his phone down,the pain in his chest growing. He'll never have Cam,he doesn't even know if he's gay. And even if he was,Cameron could have anyone he wanted why would he choose Swagger. And then there's Bee, the woman he does in fact still sorta love, or he at least wanted to. Eric felt so torn, 'fuck this,'  he thought picking up his jacket and digging around in his pocket for the lighter and single joint in a medical tube. He steps out onto Bee's balcony, wearing only a tshirt and boxers. He pops open the tube and slides the joint into his hand, sniffing it deeply and sighing. He pinches off the end for smoother hits and lights it after two flicks from his, nearly empty, red lighter. He exhales slowly, watching the smoke twist and disappear from existence. If things didn't get better maybe he could just leave he thought, looking out at the tall buildings. Maybe he could tell Bee he has feelings for someone else so she could beat the shit out of him the way he felt he deserved. Even feeling guilty made him feel guilty, because he knew he should do something. But what is there to do? Break up with Bee, hurting her over some guy who he'll never even have. 'Isn't that worse?'
"Hey babe, why didn't you wake me?" Eric hears suddenly from behind, causing him to panick and throw the joint off the balcony. He blows his smoke out quickly, "oh I just thought you looked pretty and didn't want to disturb you" He replies not looking back at her. "Well you really should have.I hated waking up without you" She pulls Eric around to face her, standing naked and pouting. Eric pecks her cheek and pulls her into a hug. He can hear her sniffing his shirt loudly and curses himself for such a stupid mistake. She pushes herself from him looking into his eyes "Babe,you weren't smoking,were you?" Eric groans rubbing his face. "Do you want me to lie so we don't have to fight?" Bee shakes her head,turning around and going back into the house quickly. He follows her in but stops in the living room, as she stomps down to her bedroom. "No,Eric I don't want you to lie, and I don't want to fight. I want you to leave." She says shouting and throwing his jeans at him from the bedroom. He catches them as they slide down his chest, "Bee are you serious? What, cause I smoked half a joint?" He extends his arms in confusion. She nods,walking past him, now in a robe knotted at the waist, holding his left shoe and looking for it's mate. "You know what I said Eric. You know how I feel about it..." She bends down on one knee to look under the couch, "and you come to my house " she stands back up quickly, "fuck me and then leave me sleeping to go smoke!" She says angrily now staring into his eyes, finger on his chest.  "Find your shoe and get the fuck out,text me when you make it home or don't. I don't care anymore." Eric protests, apologizing as she slams her bedroom door. He stood there holding his pants and his left shoe,wondering how the fuck he was going to get out of all this mess.

He pushes open the Misfits house door with a sigh of relief, toeing off his shoes and putting his keys back in his pocket. He's startled by the tall blonde sitting with his legs up on the couch in the dark, looking at his phone he's holding over his stomach. Eric briefly fantasizes about crawling onto Cam's chest forcing his long arms around his body. "How was it?" Cameron questions not looking away from his phone. "Well the sex was okay." Eric replies scooting over to the couch perpendicular to Cameron's. "But not so much everything after.." he adds sitting down and pulling his feet up, sitting cross legged. Cameron is scrolling through some texts,Eric notices, now being able to see. Long messages from both parties and he ponders who his tall friend could be speaking with. Fitz must notice Swag staring because he locks his phone and places it face down on his belly. Now looking up at the ceiling, "if someone has feelings for someone they should tell them right? Not just keep it a secret and miss out on the opportunity to be with someone that might want them too." Eric's heartrate quickens instantly and he finds himself struggling to open his mouth. "Because I really like this girl I've been talking with online,but she lives so far away... but I really like her alot.. She just.. she makes my heart beat faster y'know?"
Swagger swallows,"yeah, I do." He feels his heartrate drop back to normal as quickly as it sped up. 'Why does this hurt so much?'  "I don't know. I guess you should just go with your gut, if you feel like you want her then tell her. If it's meant to be then it'll just work, despite the distance or whatever." Eric says reassuringly. "Ifit'ssoeasythenhowcome youneverjustfuckingsayanything?" Cameron mumbles quietly, making Swagger ask him to repeat himself. Cameron mutters a nothing and explains he's tired and going to sleep before getting up and walking off to his bedroom,leaving Eric feeling uneasy.