More Than A Miracle

45. The biggest happiness

Akshita

It has been a couple of days that Khushu got married. Slowly, we also began to adjust to our old routine and got used to her absence. It was similar to her being in college since we talked on the phone almost every single day. A few days after her marriage, Khushu came home for pagphere rasam and it was a lot of fun. Even though she fell sick but we all were delighted to see how Aditya also came running behind her in just one day. He accompanied her and took care of her so lovingly. Seeing them happy and so much in love, eased my heart. I was truly positive about Khushi's future now.

For the past few days, I kept feeling tensed and thinking of ways to talk to Ashish about having a child. I don't know why I was being so reserved in this situation. It's not like he would mind but I just couldn't come up with anything. After our fight the last time, I try to control myself and not fight with him unnecessarily but honestly, my emotions were going haywire these days. I get annoyed so easily. My students have been walking on eggshells around me because of my uncertain attitude. Maybe I have gone crazy wanting to be a mother as soon as possible.

Feeling the need to hear an expert's opinion to calm myself down, I made an appointment with the gynaecologist for a checkup. I wanted to know if I would have any issues getting pregnant. It was me being silly but anything to calm my raging heart. After college, I went to the doctor's clinic without telling anybody at home. I made an excuse that we were having a staff meeting at college.

"Mrs Akshita." The nurse called out my name.

"That would be me." I stood up smiling at her. She asked me to go inside as the doctor was waiting for me. It was the same gynaecologist who delivered Samrti's babies so I chose to consult her.

"Hello, Mrs Akshita." She smiled politely.

"Hello, doctor," I responded with a smile too.

"So what seems to be the issue."

"Ah, it's nothing. I just wanted to get a checkup to know if I will have any issues getting pregnant." I explained sheepishly.

"Honestly, I want to have a baby now but I am finding it hard to discuss it with my husband for no reason. He is very understanding. I don't know why I am judging everything here. For the past few days, my behaviour is bizarre. I don't know how to handle my emotions." I found it necessary to explain my situation to her. She listened to my rant patiently and smiled at the end.

"Ok. First of all, there is no need for you to feel bad if you can't handle your emotions. It's your motherly instincts and it's normal to want to have babies at this stage." I calmed down hearing her. This is why I needed to see a doctor. A professional's words provide better insight into the problems.

"Thank you, I needed to hear that." She smiled at me.

"Ok, so next I would like to ask you when was your last period?" Now that she asked, I think my period was more than a little late.

"Ah, I think it was one and a half months ago," I replied.

"Oh, why don't we do your blood test first then?" She suggested.

"Sure, whatever you say." They took my blood in a vial for testing. Meanwhile, the gynaecologist discussed a few more things with me.

After some time, the nurse handed a  report to the doctor.

She smiled and looked at me, "Congratulations, Mrs Akshita. It seems that you are already pregnant."

"What? You are not joking, right?" I asked one more time just to be one hundred per cent sure.