kisser for hire • iwaoi

twenty-seven

"tooru!"

as soon as he heard the familiar voice of a woman that he had feared for a long time now, he couldn't help but freeze at where he is at the moment. he can't even move a muscle, he even forgot how to breathe properly.

oikawa dissipates the lump in his throat, he slowly stands up to face his mother. and as his gaze met his mom's raging eyes, oikawa knew what was coming his way and how he wished he could make a u-turn and avoid anything that can upset him at the moment.

oikawa felt his knees weakened as he remembers everything that had happened between him and his family, especially between him and his mom, years ago.

it was a painful memory for oikawa that he wishes to forget, and upon seeing his mother standing in front of him, the harrowing, upsetting, and traumatic memories that once chained oikawa and even bruised his own heart, came back to him all at once, like a meteor shower in the sky.

how painful.

his mom's a great talker, but she's definitely not a great listener.

when he was still living with his mom in miyagi, oikawa had been holed up inside his room, swallowing all of the insults that his own mom had been throwing at him since the day he told them he was gay.

at a very young age, oikawa knew something is definitely wrong with him. he finds guys way more attractive than girls, and that's where the trouble starts.

his mother told and taught him everything that he has to know about life and the way it works. and oikawa's totally grateful with everything that his mom had taught him.

if there's one thing that his mom never taught him it's about him being gay.

it was something that oikawa didn't learn from his mother and it's definitely something that his mother wouldn't teach him.

at the age of sixteen, oikawa fully accepted the fact that he is gay. it took him some time to fully accept it, besides, it was definitely something that can't be accepted very easily. especially if you grew up at a household with close-minded people.

just like how he had some trouble with accepting that fact. oikawa knew that his family would definitely have some trouble with it. so he decided to just keep it a secret first.

at the age of seventeen, subtle changes began happening to him, and how he hoped his mom didn't notice those changes. unfortunately, she did and because of that, he was forced to date someone whom he barely knows.

his mom didn't stop playing the role of cupid, even if he's already eighteen years old.

his mom keeps on setting him up on dates that he certainly had no idea about. he'll just be surprised to receive a message from his mother, telling him that he's supposed to meet someone at this and that place.

he could've just said no to his mom, but at some point, he can't bring himself to disobey and to upset his mom. after all, it is still his mother, the one who gave birth to him.

and finally, at the age of nineteen, he came out to his family. maybe he got really pissed off and at the spur of moment, the words that he wanted to say and at the same time, words that he wanted to keep as a secret, came out of his mouth like a bullet train.

his mom, who was at the kitchen, cooking dinner, grabbed the frying pan beside her and almost hit his beloved son in the face. his dad doesn't seem to care. he didn't even try to stop his wife when he saw that his son was about to get hit in the face. instead, he just told them, "tone down your voices, you're disturbing me."