Thorny kind of Love

Chapter 20

Bell's POV

Ben texts me that he is waiting in the car after my shift ended, I walk to the parking lot and find him sitting in the car, and he has a fresh sweater and pants on. I ask him to stop at the ATM, I needed to draw some money, and I like the things they sell at the markets. We drive to my house and I go in to change, I settle for my ankle lengthen black ripped skinny jeans and a pink sweater, I tie my hair in a ponytail, put on my takkies, grab my black sling bag, my dad may be coming home, I leave a note so that he doesn't need to wonder where I am, I head out the door.

We drive to the Pass and for an hour we stand at a beautiful spot, Ben leans with his back against the car, holding me in front of him, we talk, make out and take selfies.

My phone's battery almost flat and so is Ben's and I take our phones, open the car door and take out my power bank to charge my phone and as I'm using the spare cable to insert into the car's charger to charge Ben's phone, it rings. The name Polla flashes across the screen. This person is desperate to get hold of Ben, I can see there are 5 missed calls and unopened messages from her. "Ben, I think you should answer your calls...someone is urgently trying to get hold of you." Ben comes to the car and looks at his phone, I can see him turning red instantly, clenching his jaws he says, "Ignore that, let's go." I can see that this person is upsetting Ben and could spoil our evening, I grab his hand as he wants to get in the car, pull him close and hold him, looking into his eyes, I say softly, "You can talk to me Ben, if something is bothering, tell me." He looks at me, cups my face with his hands, kisses my lips, and says, "It's nothing, I'll sort it out when I get back home." I rest my head against his chest and whisper, "Ok."

At the night market, we order some drinks and snacks and sit at a table near a playing band, we visit various stands throughout the night, Ben buys some souvenirs for his family and I buy some items for the house. We come across a five-minute sweater print stand and I get an idea, I choose a plain black sweater and tell them what to print, Ben is staring with amusement at a mime, after a few minutes, I collect the sweater and pay, I tug Ben's arm to pull him towards me, I hand him the sweater and he looks at it, smiling he leans down and kisses me. "I love it, thank you." He says while pulling it over his other sweater, I look at him and smile at the print, in huge white letters it reads, "Bell's heart" with an arrow pointing to a red heart that sits exactly where his actual heart is. After seeing this, Ben insists on getting the same done for me, my sweater was white and printed in black, "Ben's heart" with the arrow pointing to a heart at the exact spot where my heart sits, we take a few selfies of us together in our sweaters. We sit on a bench by a secluded area, I sit with my legs wrapped around Ben's waist, I nibble on his ear and whisper, "I love you and thank you for a lovely evening."

Ben places hot kisses in my neck and whispers back, "I love you too." We kiss and I'm sucking his tongue passionately, Ben squeezes my bum as I place steamy hot kisses on his neck. It's getting late and we head home, Ben insists that I go back to the B&B with him but I know that my dad will be home this evening so I can't sleep out, all the way driving, Ben is sulking. "We can spend time together tomorrow after work, my shift ends two hours earlier, you can plan anything you want," I say trying to cheer him up. He is still not happy but agrees to the fact that we will have more time together. Ben doesn't want to drop me off yet, he wants to hang out at least for another hour he claims, so we stop at a popular riverbank, it's known as lover's spot, I can see at least four other cars in the distances away from each other.

Ben turns up the radio, drops his seat to the back, resting his head on his hands, he lays staring at the roof. "Bell...I can't leave you, I won't be able to handle it." I look at him, in such a vulnerable state and I'm sure his eyes were teary, he doesn't look at me but continues staring at the roof. I lean over and place my hands on his chest. "Ben, I don't want you to leave either and this will be hard for me as well, but I have faith in us and you need to go back and sort out things at home and your family," I say and swallow the lump in my throat. Neither of us expected or wanted this and it's so hard and unfair that we found ourselves in this situation. Ben sits up wiping the tears rolling down my cheek and I find myself overwhelmed with emotion and I cry uncontrollably. He holds me close and comforts me, I realize at that moment how much I love Ben, I try not to think of his departure, I lean closer and kiss his lips not wanting his mouth to leave mine, I get out of my seat and climb on top of him, I kiss him blocking all thoughts of him leaving.

Ben leans forward and holds me tight, we are in a state of passion and aggression as I pull Ben's top off and pants down, we both struggle to get my pants and panties off, finally I am on top of Ben again, I kiss his lips, neck and lick him all over his chest, Ben cannot control his excitement, he sits up and opens the small compartment by the dashboard of the car, he takes out a condom, tears open the packet and slides the condom on.

I quickly glance around the area, no one in sight, thank God the car's windows were tinted black, I find myself riding Ben, and it feels good to be on top and in control, satisfying Ben. Ben sucks my breast and nipples, I lean down and kiss him pushing my tongue into his mouth, I lick and suck his neck. This drives Ben crazy and he is moaning with pleasure. In a matter of minutes, we both come and scream out each other's names.

I lay on his chest for a few minutes trying to catch my breath, I get off Ben as he peels off the condom and throws it away, he pulls up his pants and puts on his top, I pull up my pants and ask him to clip my bra, he kisses my neck while he does so. "Ben I need to get home now." He looks at me like a naughty child that got scolded, I find it cute and giggle. As we drive, Ben says, "I'll pick you up for work tomorrow morning." I tell him that I will take the taxi, but Ben is adamant and stands his ground saying, "I'm picking you up and that's it Bell, be ready." I couldn't get away with any excuse so I just agree and say, "Ok."

I lay on his chest for a few minutes trying to catch my breath, I get off Ben as he peels off the condom and throws it away, he pulls up his pants and puts on his top, I pull up my pants and ask him to clip my bra, he kisses my neck while he does so. "Ben I need to get home now." He looks at me like a naughty child that got scolded, I find it cute and giggle. As we drive, Ben says, "I'll pick you up for work tomorrow morning." I tell him that I will take the taxi, but Ben is adamant and stands his ground saying, "I'm picking you up and that's it Bell, be ready." I couldn't get away with any excuse so I just agree and say, "Ok."

Ben's POV

I save all the pictures that I have taken with Bell in a special folder, these are my most prized memories and will treasure it with my heart.  Our phone batteries are almost dead and Bell takes it to the car to charge as I gaze on the beautiful view in front of me. "Ben, I think you should answer your calls...someone is urgently trying to get hold of you." I hear Bell say and I head towards her, I look at my phone, I curse PolIa for almost ruining my evening with Bell, I really need to sort out this mess when I get back, so I say, "Ignore that, let's go." 

The rest of the night went well and I had the most wonderful evening with Bell and  I slowly start realizing how  hopelessly in love I am with her. I think of our intimacy, our talks, our laughs, her smile which seemed like it was designed for just me. Every time we are apart, I am constantly thinking of her, and never in my life have I felt more alive and dedicated to anything. Looking back at my life, I can say that I wasn't one of those guys who get that lucky, Yes I have gotten enough love and care but my life has become something I couldn't have dreamt of.

I meant what I said when I told her that I won't be able to handle it when the time comes to go back to Germany, I can't imagine a life there without Bell. All I know is that whatever happens in our lives, wherever we are and will be, I will always think of our time together as of the best thing that has ever happened to me and as the was happiest time of my life, and have no regrets. Bell is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with and for some reason, I feel that I strongly want to commit to her.

I look at the sweater Bell had printed for me and confirm the truth, I had her heart. I pray to God that we will find a way to say and be together because I have never looked for love before nor have I thought of having a stable relationship before, but being involved with Bell has changed my thoughts a lot lately.