Canyon Moon | H.S.

Forgettable (26)

Dearest Harry,

Happy New Year!

I said it to you, as the clock struck midnight. It was directed at Bekah but at you too.

I wish I could have said it to you in person, though perhaps that would have been worse.

As the clock struck midnight, were you wrapped around her? Were you sealing fate with a kiss as you wish for a successful year together?

I don't know what she looks like. I don't even know her name.

I don't want to know.

My mother always preached kindness, for everyone, and I want to. I want to be able to treat her with kindness.

She makes you happy, and that should be enough for me.

But I'm letting myself be selfish and admitting that I hate it.

I want to be there to make you happy.

Have a good year Harry.

Natalie

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Dearest Harry,

Bekah and I went shopping today. She decided it would be the perfect thing to lift my spirits.

It just reminded me of you.

It seems every colour reminds me of you.

It's no wonder I still haven't painted.

There were a pair of trousers the same colour as your eyes when the sun hits them.

I saw a jumper the same colour of pink that the tops of your ears turn when you're embarrassed.

I bought an orange top in the end, but all it reminds me of is the colour of your skin in the dim light of the restaurant you took me to.

I should paint again soon.

I know I should. Just like I know you're never coming back.

Maybe painting is too much like admitting that life just goes on as normal.

I miss you.

N

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Dearest Harry,

It's been a year now since I left.

Did you realise?

I think this day will forever be burned in my brain.

Though the fact that you didn't realise until the following day seems pretty apt for some reason.

I keep expecting you to just walk back into my life.

Just as easily as I walked out.

That's a lie, I don't know why I wrote that.

It wasn't easy.

Darling, it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

And yet, I still did it. I followed their rules.

I didn't try to reach you.

I didn't try.

I just took their instructions and their threats to heart.