The Second Choice

Moving On

It has been hard. As much as I don't want to admit it, this breakup is killing me. Sure I'm confused as to my feelings over Micheal, but I've known Jonathan for my entire life. And he has been a big part of it for 3 years, my first boyfriend, first love..first everything really. But I know that life has a reason for everything, hell, it can't just be a coincidence that Micheal just happened to move to New York AND goes to the same college as me. Shit, college, I'm gonna be late.

My mind falls out of the trance that it has been in all night and I quickly make breakfast for Julie and I. I'm dreading seeing Jonathan in the halls, even more so in class. But we have to act like the adults we are and put this all behind us. Thankfully Julie is taking all of this well, considering the fact her best friend and brother just broke up. She walks into the kitchen as she plasters a half asleep smile on her face.

"You ready?" she asks as she grabs a toast and shoves it into her mouth.

"Yeah we'll leave in five minutes" I say, pouring both of us a glass of orange juice.

"You know what I'm talking about" she says to me giving that look. Deep down I know she's talking about seeing Jonathan. Neither of us have heard from him since the break up.

"Yes Julie, I will be, I won't be walking around campus like some sad puppy. Does it hurt? Yes. But I won't let him get to me" I say as I grab the house keys and begin making our ways out the door.

"It's a new chapter Juls, time to move on."

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As we park our bicycles in front of campus, Julie and I wave and go our separate ways to class. It's almost as if my first instinct is to look for Jonathan, but instead I find myself looking for Micheal instead. Come to think of it, I haven't heard from him either. Maybe he wants to keep distance? What if Jonathan threatened him. All these thoughts swerve into my head as I walk into my first class of the day hoping Micheal will walk in soon.

I remove my notebook and binders and neatly place them onto my desk. I've always been a "perfectionist" as Julie likes to say, I call it being organized. A chuckle startles me as I turn around and my heart skips a beat to the view of Micheal standing behind me, smirking at me.

"Something funny?" I smile at him, not really sure if he's laughing at me.

He places his items and sits besides me. "You still organize everything, just like you did back in seventh grade."

"You remember that?" I say surprised as he too removes his stuff from his bag, difference being he is much messier than I am.

"How could I have forgotten anything about you?" he gives me a flirtatious smirk as I feel my cheeks start to get red. Dammit Crystal. Don't cave in.

"Listen Crystal, I'm sorry for not texting or calling this weekend, there's something that happened and I think you should know." My full attention is given to him but he is interrupted as the door slams open in the middle of the professor's lecture. Micheal and I both look up and see Jonathan walking in. I'm confused for a second because this isn't his class and I then realize he is drunk, and looking towards Micheal and I. This is not good.

" Well, Well, Well, look what the cat dragged in. If it isn't my two favorite people sitting right beside each other. Crystal my ex girlfriend, who I broke up with merely two days ago and is already kissing up to Micheal the guy she told me 'not to worry about'" I look over to Micheal and I see anger plastered across his face, and truthfully he should be just as angry as I am for embarrassing us in front of our peers.

"If you don't mind me asking I'm just DYING to know, have you two fucked yet?" A look of horror goes across my face, not believing he just said that out loud in front of everybody. I look over to Micheal once more and it looks as if he is about to get up to confront Jonathan, but before he could do so, campus security escorts Jonathan out.