Say Goodnight Before You Leave

44. Killjoy

A.N.: I said this bf but I'm insecure so THE AGES ARE WRONG so very wrong. (Also I fucked up the northern hemisphere school year and made it southern and I'm not changing ok bye♡)

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Present. Berlin, Germany.

"I didn't think I'd be allowed this type of happiness again. But here I am." Mads' voice is still husky from just waking up.

"You're not a bad person, Mads. You deserve good things, as pretentious as I may sound, including me in the package," I laugh.

"Well, you said yourself, Karlo was a good person, yet he died so young. This deserving thing might be broken after all."

"We transit life in a dark path, we might assume to be walking straight then we life takes a turn and there's no option but to keep on moving. Perhaps it was his time to go. I believe in heaven, Mads, and I believe he's there, in blissful happiness. It's no coincidence we met after that."

He rests his head back on the pillow. "That is right. My life has had lots of coincidences that lead me to good places, but you were no coincidence." He chuckles. "I fought to be laid here beside you."

"Yes, you did." I rest my chin on his hairy chest, admiring his bone structure, outlined by the morning light, lips of artistic structure, eyes acquired of a honey color. "But a great part is thanks for the fact that I love you and I can't get rid of this obsession I have towards you."

"I'm happy you can't, I hope you never do."

"It won't happen. I'm ought to be under your spell since Genesis."

"Genesis?"

"Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you. It's biblical that I find myself drawn to you, as a curse but I'm not complaining. If I'm to choose someone to rule over me, I'd be happy for that someone to be you."

He laughs making his chest shake. "Was that ever in your head that cold Berliner night? When you saw that desperate skinny guy wanting your attention?"

"No, all I wanted was protection for the night. I didn't fall at first sight, not with for him or anyone I ever liked. I think more about the second time I saw him than the first when we met again by chance. And it's been that way since, the next is always better than the previous one."

"Lucky him. What about Karlo?"

"What about him?"

"How it was the first time you met?"

"At a party hosted by his family, his father was college friends with mine. He saw me first and I was fresh from heartbreak, I scorned him but then I found out who his parents were. He was patient, good-humored, kind, he had to be, cause I was a tough one."

"I can only imagine. But then good things take effort. Was he part of your curse?"

"He was more like the ribs from which I was brought to life by, than part of malediction."

"Both are from Adam, yet I get the curse part."

"You're both my Adam, cause I loved both... but the life I had with him was tender from day one, it was a little piece of Eden. Between us it began all wrong and just now we're managing to make it right, I bit the apple, I dove too deep, yet Adam and Eve died together."

Two knocks on the door. "Hey, breakfast is ready," Dallas says without opening the door - he never does, thankfully.

"Okay, we're going!" I swing the blankets away and bring my legs off the bed. "Dallas' birthday is Friday and I'm wondering what I'll give him."