Him~ Mattia Polibio

Day 50

Sunday

I woke up with my head spinning again. Fuck did I smoke last night. I look over to my side table and see my phone. I open up snapchat and see my eyes aren't red. Ok phew I didn't smoke. Fuck it's 11AM I need to get ready.

Mattia(girl you need to block him)

Hey
hope you slept well :)

I know you did not just-

Since you didn't phone me back yesterday maybe we can talk in person?

Mattia. You hurt me a lot. You lied to me. You cheated. I don't think we should talk

Just let me explain everything pls

Explain what, why you cheated. There's not much to explain, cheating is cheating no matter what the circumstances are

Please just listen. I'm not asking you to forgive me I just want to explain to you. So you knew everything and aren't in the dark if more stuff come out

So there's more??

No no I'm just saying.

Fine give me 10 minutes.

Thanks.

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I shouldn't have agreed to this at all. I'm such a pushover ugh. No Elle you a bad bitch stop it. I walked over to the mirror and just starred at myself in the mirror trying to picture all of this if none of this happened. Next week Saturday would of been Mattia and I's 4 month anniversary. We always said that every month we have to go out for a big fancy dinner so we can remember our first few dates. Now I'm going to go meet my ex boyfriend who cheated on me.

I walked out the door and knocked on Mattias door before putting on my hood to cover my hair that wasn't looking as good as I wanted it to look.

Mattia opened the door, seeing him standing there with the sweatpants I bought from him a while ago made me realize how much we really did for eachother

Mattia: hey
Elle: ummmm yea hey I said making eye contact

Mattia sat on his bed while I sat on the chair opposite. Just seeing him made me angry.

Elle: you wanted to talk
Mattia: yea I just don't know how to start
Elle: did you sleep with her
Mattia: no no, I swear . It was just a kiss
Elle: just a kiss!! Mattia you were in a fucken relationship you can't just say "it was JuSt a KiSs" cause it wasn't.
Mattia: it was I promise you
Elle: you promised me no lies as well but look where we are
Mattia sighed heavily

Elle: when did you go see her
Mattia: it was Monday she wanted to talk to me so she messaged me the day before
Elle: you still talk to her!
Mattia: no after what happened the last time I don't talk to her. She messaged me I was just as surprised
Elle: carry on
Mattia: she was telling me how much she missing out little arrangement and I told her no then she just leaned in and we kissed
Elle: you can't just blame her. It takes 2 people to kiss not just one. Whether you kissed back or didn't it still hurts, my voice cracked at these words came out my mouth

Mattia: I know Elle I messed up so much. Mattia took my hand into his. I looked at him with pure disgust before snatching it away
Elle: do you know what makes it worse
Elle: that Ale knew and didn't tell me. That you knew how much I hate lies, yet you still lied to me
Tears were forming in my eyes again