Every Sunset was Once a Sunrise

7 : Bribe

4:15 am

RaFiend:

Good morning :)

Gising na baka maiwan ng bus

I smiled upon reading his text first thing in the morning.

5:05 am

You:

Morning.

Aga gising o walang tulog?

We've been like this for a month after the KTV incident. Hinihintay na niya ako ulit tuwing uwian at sabay kaming umuuwi. He'd tell me ahead of time if something came up and he wouldn't be able to accompany me home. And on weekends, we texted almost the whole day, keeping each other updated on whatever the one's up to or just something trivial and random stuff to talk about. No, we're not a thing but we clearly aren't just friends too.

Binalikan ko ang mga luma naming convo at binasa iyon randomly hanggang sa mabalikan ko ang isang recent at medyo madibdibang usapan namin.

You:

Tawang tawa nga si Mon nung kinwento ko sa kaniya yon. Lukaret eh haha

Anyway, bakit ka nga ba nag-transfer dito?

If it's too personal then you don't have to answer

RaFiend:

Nah, it's fine

Handa ka tissue hahaha jk

My parents separated ways when I was in grade school. Told us their relationship didn't work. I ended up staying with my dad at manila and my sister stayed here with my mom. Then years later, mom eventually found what she's looking for with someone else. I'm not sure if this might sound weird but we still all communicate in the same way, especially my parents, despite having this complicated setup

But then my dad, thinking that I had ill feelings towards mom ended up sending me here to reconcile. Hindi ko alam sa'n niya nakuha 'yon. Pero pumayag nalang rin ako para matahimik na ang mga agam-agam niya

You:

You mean you're living with your mom and her new partner right now? How was it? Hindi ba awkward 'yon?

That sounds kinda complicated. Totoo bang wala ka ni tampo sa mom mo? Baka naman sinasabi mo lang na ok sayo because that's what they expect of you?

RaFiend:

Yep. Awkward nung una pero nakasanayan ko na rin

To be honest, I can't help thinking why things doesn't work out with her and dad at first. Hindi ko maintindihan kung paano nila naisipang magpakasal kung hindi rin pala magw-work yon in the long run. But at a certain point, it started to get to me. And it made me realize that tomorrow, same goes with everything, is never promised. Because eventually, it'll change. Gasgas nang pakinggan pero, lahat talaga ng bagay ay nagbabago. At some point

And yes, staying here with mom for more than a year, naintindihan ko na 'yon ngayon. At tama si dad, hindi totoong wala akong hinanakit sa mom ko. Because whether I like it or not, I used to carry that ill feeling towards her for years. Unconsciously