Every Sunset was Once a Sunrise

14 : Missing

Then the day that he had to leave came. He left early in the morning at napagkasunduan naming 'wag nang magkita. Nagising na lang ako ng may mga text mula sa kaniya. And even though I'm trying to be supportive of his dreams, I still can't lie to myself how dejected I'm feeling about all this.

RaFiend:

Good morning. We've just on boarded on the ship

Don't forget to eat your breakfast before you start your day :)

Text me when you got bored haha I miss you already

You:

Will do

Don't forget to eat too. And please don't strain yourself... work moderately, wag bayani! Di ka magkaka-statue dyan

I miss you too already :(

RaFiend:

Yes, ma'am hahaha

I ain't dead yet please don't cry

You:

I'm not crying!!

But I actually am. Ayaw ko lang na mag-isip pa siya. I don't want him to think that I'm acting like a child. I can endure being away from him. I need to be mature enough to do so.

RaFiend:

I'll come home to you, Lew. Please wait for me :)

You:

Duh. Of course I will. But please make it soon... :(

The first sem for my sophomore year starts. Inabala ko ang sarili sa school works. Madalas din akong sumama kung saan sa tuwing nag-aaya ang mga block mates ko after ng mga klase namin—even on weekends. Whether it'll be at random restaurants, coffee shops, clubs, events, anything. Though some of it are for group projects, most are just for fun. At sa disposisyon ko ngayo'y kahit anong kasiyahan at pagkakaabalahan ay papatulan ko para lang mailigaw ang mga iniisip at nararamdaman.

Alam ko, lumaki akong nakukuha at nagagawa ang lahat ng gusto ko. And I don't think I'm fond of feeling sulky right now about things not going my way.

Raf's a person with dreams and ambition at alam kong hindi ko siya maaaring ikulong sa mga palad ko. Hindi ko siya pwedeng angkinin gaano ko man siya kamahal. So this is how I cope with the situation, and I don't need anyone to tell me how wrong it may seem, or to do it in some other noble way.

Jakey boy:

Batangas this weekend on Raul's resthouse. You in?

You:

Sure

Jakey boy:

Dali talagang ayain nito hahaha

Wala bang magagalit?

You:

My life, my decisions haha

Who else are coming?

Jakey boy:

That's my girl hahaha