Stay Awake, Soonyoung

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"Hindi ako makahinga.."

"Jihoon, wala akong makita.."

"Jihoon, hindi ko na kaya.."

"Jihoon..ang sakit.."

Laging nagigising si Jihoon dahil diyan sa mga naririnig niya kay Soonyoung. Nagigising siya lagi ni Soonyoung ng mga ala una ng umaga dahil sa sakit niya.

Ayaw man ni Soonyoung na istorbohin si Jihoon pero hindi niya kayang indahin yung sakit. Si Jihoon naman ay walang pakelam kung ginigising siya, ayos lang sakanya.

"Jihoon.." he weakly called his name.

Days passed and they thought that Soonyoung was slowly getting better, but no. His condition worsen and no medications could stop it.

Jihoon smiled at him, "hm, I'm here, mahal."

"Jihoon..let's go to the rooftop," he softly said.

Jihoon covered him with a jacket before carrying him and making him sat on his wheelchair. He then pushed the wheelchair and they used elevator to reach the rooftop. Jihoon sat on the bench near the end and placed Soonyoung beside him.

"I want to sit by your side.."

Binuhat ni Jihoon si Soonyoung at pinaupo sa tabi niya.

It was nearly 5 A.M and they were about to see the sunrise.

Sinandal ni Soonyoung ang ulo niya sa balikat ni Jihoon, "I love you.."

Jihoon kissed his forehead, "you know my answer."

Natawa ng mahina si Soonyoung, "Jihoon?"

"Hm?"

"Do me a favor."

"What is it?"

Huminga ng malalim si Soonyoung, he could feel the pain in his chest already, "find new friends, go out, chase your dreams, find a new love."

Natigilan si Jihoon, he could feel a lump on his throat forming as his tears formed in his eyes.

"Go out there and live your life to the fullest."

"S-Soonyoung.."

"Shh let me finish."

Napapikit si Jihoon at doon unti-unting tumulo ang luha niya. Alam niya na kung saan sila patungo.

"Jeonghan and Seungcheol are together, Mingyu and Wonwoo are together, Seokmin is out of town, you'll be left alone, mahal," Soonyoung breathed heavily as he tried to stop his tears, "so please do my favors? Go out there, find new friends, find a new love."

Jihoon sobbed, it hurts Soonyoung, he doesn't want to make him cry.

"J-Jihoon..takot na takot ako," and then there goes his tears falling, "takot na takot akong m-mamatay."

Jihoon hugged him and Soonyoung hugged him back, "J-Jihoon, natatakot ako."

Jihoon sobbed louder, "I love you, please, wag mo muna akong iwan."

Soonyoung answered with sobs, he doesn't want to leave him either, but he couldn't take the pain anymore.

"J-Jihoon..J-Jihoon a-ayokong iwan ka," he said between his sobs, "a-ayoko, n-natatakot ako."

Jihoon rubbed his back.

"J-Jihoon," he clutched his chest.

"S-Soonyoung, l-let's go inside," napansin ni Jihoon na nahihirapan na siyang huminga, "let's go inside."