Stay Awake, Soonyoung

9

Soonyoung was looking outside his window. It was raining hard and it was so cold. He was just staring at the window while a blanket around him.

"Soonyoung, kakain na," sumilip si Ferry.

Tumango si Soonyoung.

Pagkasara ng pinto ay tumayo siya at uminom ng gamot, yung gamot na sinabi sakanya ni Ferry na itigil na. Tumingin siya sa reflection niya sa salamin at nakitang walang buhay ang katawan niya at pungay ang mga mata niya.

He could feel the death inside him.

Lumabas siya ng kwarto niya at nakayukong naglakad papunta sa office ni Ferry. Mag isa siyang kumain dahil siya nalang ang natira sa magkakaibigan na may sakit. Lahat sila ay magaling na.

Pagkakain niya ay dumeretso siya sa rooftop. Humiga siya sa pwesto kung saan lagi silang humihiga ni Jihoon at tumingin sa mga bituin.

The sky was full of stars, the night was bright, but he wasn't. He couldn't feel anything at all. He wanted to jump of the building so that his pain will end.

"Soonyoung?" lumapit sakanya si Ferry, "your parents are downstairs."

Pumikit si Soonyoung, "I don't need them."

"They want to talk with you."

Umiling si Soonyoung.

Sinara ni Ferry ang bibig niya at iniwan nalang mag isa muna si Soonyoung.

He raised his hands in the air as if he was reaching the stars.

"You said that I'm like a star because I shine like them..how can I shine if you're not with me?" tears started to fall from his eyes, "You promised me, we made a promise not to leave each other."

Soonyoung put his arms on his eyes as he cry. He thought he cried everything out already.

"How could I live without you?"

He was between his cries when someone hold his hands that made him flinched. It was Wonwoo.

"Wonwoo?"

Napaupo si Soonyoung, "what are you doing here?"

Tumabi siya kay Soonyoung, he didn't say anything, instead he leaned Soonyoung's head onto his shoulder and rubbed his back.

"You're gonna be fine."

Soonyoung sobbed, "ang sama ko bang tao para iwanan ng mga mahal ko sa buhay?"

Wonwoo didn't answer. He wanted to listen to him.

"They're all leaving me as if I'm a garbage. Basura ako alam ko, pero they didn't have to do that," he sobbed harder, "siya nalang meron ako eh, bakit iniwan niya pa ko?"

Soonyoung sobs and cries were the only thing you could hear that night. Wonwoo was comforting him by rubbing his back and not saying anything.

"They want me dead, aren't they?"

Napatingin si Wonwoo kay Soonyoung, "I don't."

"Iiwan mo lang rin ako," natatawang sabi ni Soonyoung, "katulad ka rin nila."

Again, he didn't answer.

Minutes passed and Wonwoo felt that Soonyoung breathings were already heavy, it means he already fell asleep. He carried Soonyoung at his back as they went downstairs. He went straight to his room, lay him down and tucked him in his blanket.

"I'll stay, I won't go."

*****

"Seungcheol, wag!"